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A quarterly, Governors State University, Park Forest South, IL 60466 

Vol. 6, No. 1 Fall 1982 

A quarterly published at Governors State University under the auspices of the Provost's Office ©Governors State University and Helen Hughes 


Helen E. Hughes, Editor 
Lynn Thomas Strauss, Managing Editor 
Joan Lewis, Editorial Consultant 
Suzanne Oliver, Graphic Designer 

Donna Bandstra, Consultant Editor 


Donna Bandstra, Social Sciences 

Margaret Brady, Journalism 

Rev. Ellen Dohner, Religion 

Rita Durrant, League of American Penwomen 

Ann Gerhart, Women's Networking 

Harriet Gross, Sociology/Woman's Studies 

Helens Guttman, Biological Sciences 

Miml Kaplan, Library Resources 

Young Kim, Communications Science 

Harriet Marcus Gross, Journalism 

Elizabeth Ohm, Library Resources 

Betye Saar, Fine Arts 

Sara Shumer, Political Theory 

Emily Wasiolek, Literature 

Rev. Elmer Witt, Campus Ministries 

Table of contents 


Introduction 3 


The Future is Female Project 

Report #1 4 

by Mary Clare Powell 
Nursing: Healing in a Feminine Mode 7 

by VeNeta Mas son 
How "She Could Let That Happen" 11 

Book Review by Terri Pease Schwartz 
Wtiting/From a Premenstrual Perspective 

Poem by Alice Dan 13 


Reflections on Slender Bender 

by Donna Bandstra 
My Week At Fitness Camp 

by Donna Bandstra 
Fitness: The Three-Fold Path 

by Marilyn Herbeck 
Yoga As a Discipline For Women 

by Ginger Plys 
Dead Weight 

by Linda Galiotto 
Getting Healthy or Confessions of 

A Sedentary Life 

by Elizabeth A. Havey 


by Linda Ritchie and Lori Seid 




A Woman Wins First Place in The 

Worldloppet Competition 33 

by Emily Wasiolek 

Confessions of A Soccer Junkie 36 
by Barbara Pierce 

Movie Review of Personal Best 38 
by Emily Wasiolek 





This issue was typed on the Lexitron 
word processor by Phyllis Rich. 

The Creative Woman is a quarterly 
published by Governors State University. 
We focus on a special topic in each 
issue, presented from a feminist 
perspective. We celebrate the creative 
achievements of women in many fields 
and appeal to inquiring minds. We 
publish fiction, poetry, book reviews, 
articles, photography and original 
graphics . 

Beyond Myth... Women and Running 
by Margaret Brady 



In this issue we note and celebrate 
the many ways in which contemporary 
women are taking charge of their own 
bodies and, thus, their own lives. 

The current emphases on physical 
fitness, exercise, diet, and sports, the 
concept of health as "wellness" — a radi- 
ant sense of well-being beyond the mere 
absence of disease — we see these trends 
as related to our care for the planet 
and for all life as well as for our 

In her review of "If I Should Die," 
Terri Pease Schwartz points out the dev- 
astating psychological scars that result 
from sexual abuse of a little girl. Her 
body is experienced as not her own, but 
the property of another. In her work as 

a child psychotherapist, Dr. Schwartz 
helps young sexually abused children to 
reclaim their bodies as they reclaim 
their sense of self, wholeness and au- 

Our lead article reports an excit- 
ing project by Annie Cheatham and Mary 
Clare Powell who are traveling around 
the country this year, asking "Where is 
the feminine emerging in the culture 
now?" They are searching out the future 
structures that will bring the new into 
being. They argue that women are moving 
"to hold back destruction and to liter- 
ally transform the planet, beginning 
with ourselves . " 

It's all connected. 


PART 1: Feminist Perspectives 


Report #1 

by Mary Clare Powell 

The Future is Female is an indepen- 
dent project created by Annie Cheatham 
and Mary Clare Powell. We are traveling 
around the United States and Canada for 
a year talking with feminist artists and 
other people who are conceiving or liv- 
ing out new structures in this culture: 
structures that come out of a feminine 
consciousness; structures that are non- 
discriminatory, nonhierarchical , coop- 
erative, life-giving, healthy for the 
planet; structures for families, health 
care, law, business, the arts, education, 
agriculture, etc. Where are the seeds 
of the future? Where are the places of 
light and life in the midst of death 
dealing? Where are the structures of 
hope? Where is the feminine emerging 
in the culture now, and what structures 
are women creating that are holistic and 
life-giving? And we are also asking how 
women are envisioning the future, for it 
is out of our imaging that it comes. 

We are learners and we are seeking 
meeting with a diversity of people — all 
ages, races, classes, sexual orienta- 
tions, ways of living, city and rural, 
of various political stances. We are 
seeing that by our travel and our pre- 
sence we form connections, not just for 
ourselves, but for all those we contact. 

We have interviewed women in New 
England and some of New York state. 
Then we headed west via the northern 
route, meeting people in Pennsylvania, 
Canada, Ohio, Illinois, Indiana, Ken- 
tucky, Michigan, Wisconsin, Minnesota, 
Iowa, as well as some in Nebraska and 
Montana. Next — Seattle, and then we'll 
take a side trip to Alaska. Then we'll 
go down the west coast, across the 
southwest and south, and back to some of 
the cities of the east coast. We have 
decided to try and send out a newsletter 
every two to three months, so that we 
can let women all over the country know 
who we are meeting in various places. 

We will also write articles for women's 
newspapers and other publications. And 
we're making a series of taped inter- 
views, slides, and keeping a left-handed 
journal which contains more right- 
brained stories about the trip. 

The Art Exhibit 
As part of the project, we are 
carrying a portable exhibit of women's 
art, from about 30 women in the Washing- 
ton, DC area. We are interested in al- 
ternatives in all areas of the culture, 
and specifically in the arts in how 
women artists are taking responsibility 
for how their work is seen and shown, 
in settings other than conventional 
galleries and self-publishing. We are 
collecting prints and slides from women 
as we go, since we don't have room to 
collect original pieces. Women are also 
giving us books and brochures that we 
pass along to others as we go. 

Who We Are 
Mary Clare is a visual artist who 
uses black and white photographs juxta- 
posed with words, sometimes in sequences , 
sometimes as slides and tapes, sometimes 
in books. She self-published a book, 
The Widow , based on interviews and pho- 
tographs of her mother, and concerned 
with an aging woman who is alone for the 
first time in her life. She is inter- 
ested in doing a series of books, tell- 
ing the stories of "ordinary" women with 
their words and her images. She is very 
interested in alternatives to conven- 
tional gallery and publishing routes. 

Annie Cheatham is a country girl 
from North Carolina. "Things flow 
through me," she says. She conceived 
and built the Congressional Clearing- 
house on the Future, a caucus group to 
help members of Congress think about the 
future in some new ways. Annie is in- 
terested in staying with certain women 
whose lives she can share for several 

From the Journal of Mary Clare 

"You know, I'm not an art historian 

or reviewer or critic. I am only an 
artist and Annie is sort of a futurist. 
Annie is a spiritual person, Annie is 
full of spirit. We cannot make any 
dignified or scholarly account of this 
project, because we are just people, and 
one of us is an artist and you know how 
they mess around, and one of us is full 
of spirits, and you never know what 
they're going to do next. So we have to 
keep it personal. We must tell truth 
and not pose as anything we are not. 
And we want to let our inner process and 
our relationship become a natural part 
of the project, and we want to tell 
about the inner part at the same time as 
we tell about who we are meeting. And 
we must rest when we are tired, we must 
separate when we are sick of each other, 
we must allow ourselves to each be where 
we are every day. We must tell the 
truth. We must not hide behind words." 

The project grew out of an initial 
idea of Annie's to edit an anthology of 
writing by various women about the fu- 
ture, to be called The Future Is Female . 
This project was gradually transformed 
into the present project as Mary Clare 
began to look for companions — feminist 
artists who asked questions about what 
they were doing and why, whose concern 
was social transformation, and who were 
exploring alternatives. One day we 
looked at each other and said, "Let's 
quit our jobs and save our money and 
rent out our house and go around the 
country for a year and see where the 
new is emerging." And so we did. 

What We Need 

The money for the project comes 
from our savings. We decided not to get 
any grant money because we did not want 
to have to produce any specific product 
by any specific time for anyone else. A 
friend, Ann Gibson, a papermaker near 
Northampton, Massachusetts, is our con- 
tact person, post office box recipient, 
bookkeeper, and caretaker of our dog. 
We couldn't do this without her. As we 
go along, we are also asking for help in 
various forms from the women we meet. 
Some of these things are: places to 
stay and meals, photocopying costs, 

slide film, women to talk to about how 
to handle the enormous amount of data 
we have, someone to let Mary Clare bake 
bread and make soup in her kitchen, a 
chance to work on people's gardens and 
gather some fresh vegetables, massages, 
gas money, postage to mail back items we 
accumulate, a few long distance calls, a 
place to do our laundry, women who know 
about computers to talk to us about our 
data, people to buy The Widow and Annie's 
book, Future Shock and You . We believe 
that if we ask for what we need, we will 
receive it. So we're asking. And we're 
receiving. And are grateful. 


We're not sure what the final prod- 
uct of this voyage will be. Undoubtedly, 
there will be many products. It may be 
a book, it may also be an art exhibit, 
it will probably be a directory of all 
we meet. We want also to play with the 
data of the trip, like artists play with 
materials, and see what comes up. So 
we're not solidifying what the products 
will be. We ultimately want to share 
the experience in many ways, and to cre- 
ate connections for all of us to empower 
and encourage us to bring the future we 
want into being. 

"My sense so far is that people, 
women and all of us, are hunkering down, 
keeping the jobs we have, not making 
drastic moves, not generating many 
flashy new structures, like in the 70's. 
But keeping on going. And maturing in 
the ways we deal with each other. Learn- 
ing how to deal with conflict in women's 
organizations and communities and rela- 
tionships. This keeping on going is 
very powerful, but not very splashy. 
I've begun to know about all the energy 
that surrounds one person who is DOING 
IT. All we have to do. is begin. We can 
do it. And are." 

"I'm thinking these days about how 
the inner and the outer connect. All 
that happens to me and to Annie during 
this trip is part of the project. My 
dreams, fantasies, feelings, her draw- 
ings, her work on the newsprint, her 
mother sick in Florida, my 40th birthday, 

all those clippings from all the newspa- 
pers. All our struggles to be together 
and to be apart, to bring the new be- 
tween us into being. PLUS all the wo- 
men we're meeting, their stories, their 
ideas, their creations, their relation- 
ships with each other and with children 
and with men. And the threat of nuclear 
holocaust and the rising numbers of us 
who shout NO! Flowing back and forth, 
juxtaposing the inner and the outer." 

"And language — I begin not to know 
what any of the words mean that we women 
toss around so easily. What does 'femi- 
nist' mean, or 'radical feminist'? Or 
'lover' or even 'lesbian'? Or 'celibacy' 
or 'monogamy*? The words begin to lose 
their meanings as I hear them used so 
much, in such diverse ways. I welcome 
this, because then new language comes." 

"And I see the incredible diversity 
of us and what we do to preserve and 
encourage life. Women of all kinds. No 
one of us has it figured out, no one of 
us has just the right idea for us all. 
It ±s_ like a web, our logo is a good 
image. And we need all of us." 

"And I begin to think about the 
power of the positive. About how in 
spiritual terms, and probably in other 
terms, the positive , which is often very 
simple, is very powerful. And visuali- 
zation. And how we image things is how 
they really are for us. And if we 
image ourselves as strong and creative 
women, then we become that. And if we 
image a world without weapons, then it 
is possible to make one. And the future 
is female not because it belongs to wo- 
men, but because I think women have the 
imagination and the positive life-giving 
energy to hold back destruction and to 
literally transform the planet, begin- 
ning with ourselves in this time." 

To contact the project: 

Ann Gibson 

P.O. Box 232 

Florence, Massachusetts 01060 

(413) 584-9309 


by VeNeta Mas son 

(excerpt from The Journal of Nursing 
Administration, October 1981) 

Nurses — that is, experienced, 
professional nurses who think, serious- 
ly about what they do — seem not at all 
satisfied with their place under the 
sun. They often feel that nursing's 
early appeal, as a career, now eludes 
them. They believe that nurses and 
nursing are vital to the well-being of 
society. They believe they deserve the 
same respect and rewards accorded pro- 
fessions like medicine. But take them 
aside and ask them what nurses do that 
nobody else does and many will admit 
they cannot articulate it. Still, 
teachers purport to teach it, adminis- 
trators to administer it, researchers 
to research it, and practioners to 
practice it — whatever "it" is. All 
know instinctively that nursing is more 
than the sum of the skills they have 
mastered and the knowledge they possess. 
They are proud of what they do, but 
plagued by two questions, frequently 
voiced by family, friends, and sometimes 
patients: "With all those diplomas you 
have, and your intelligence, why don't 
you just become a doctor?" and "Why 
does it take a university degree to be 
a nurse anyway?" Maybe these are really 
two versions of the same question. 

It was during this period of uncer- 
tainty that I came in contact with the 
work of Castillejo. What she says in 
her psychology of women is quite simple 
really and has been said by others, 
including Emma and C. G. Jung. Unlike 
modern-day feminists who claim that the 
differences between men and women are 
largely the result of their socializa- 
tion and that there is little difference 
between the working of a man's or wo- 
man's mind, Castillejo, following Jung, 
says that men and women are indeed dif- 
ferent and that these differences are 
meant to complement one another. The 
masculine is characterized by focused 
consciousness, that is, the power to 

look at things and analyze their com- 
ponent parts, the ability to formulate 
logical relationships, and the capacity 
to change, invent, create, and to iden- 
tify and solve problems. The feminine 
is characterized by a kind of diffuse 
awareness of the wholeness of nature, 
where everything is linked to everything 
else and each individual exists as part 
of the whole. The feminine is more 
perceptive within a wider range than 
the masculine, but the perceptions are 
less sharply focused. 

These masculine and feminine ele- 
ments are interwoven in people of both 
sexes and the associated qualities be- 
long to both men and women in varying 
degrees. Of the present era, Castillejo 
writes: "This penetration by each sex 
of the other's realm has progressed so 
far that to speak of a man-woman rela- 
tionship as though it were something 
definite is beyond me."[l] 

Masculine and Feminine Elements 
within the Healing Professions 

These observations rang clear and 
true, as I applied them not simply to 
relations between the sexes, but to dif- 
ferences between the professions of med- 
icine and nursing as I was experiencing 
them. There do seem to be masculine and 
feminine healing modes. The masculine 
is epitomized by the modern physician 
(of either sex) and the feminine, by the 
nurse (female or male). Scientific 
medicine is problem oriented. Medical 
problems are identified, analyzed, and 
treated, often as discrete entities that 
might be disembodied and examined quite 
apart from their owner, the patient. 
This point of view has spawned the medi- 
cal jargon according to which Mrs. Smith 
is "the ulcer in Room 242" and Mrs. 
Jones "the hernia that we did last week.' 
Nursing, in contrast, can be conceived 
as healing in a feminine mode where the 
therapeutic media are health-producing 
relationships and the creation of an en- 
vironment that stimluates the patient's 
own capacity for healing himself. Nur- 
sing is typified by a concern with any 
part that is diseased, but always in 
context of the whole. 

Just as men and women have mascu- 
line and feminine elements within their 
psyches, so both physicians and nurses 
can and do function in both masculine 
and feminine healing modes. The mas- 
culine healing mode, characterized by 
problem solving, is more highly devel- 
oped in the physician and the feminine 
mode, characterized by nurturing, is 
more highly developed in the nurse. 
Both are essential to healing; neither 
should be divorced from the other. 

When functioning in the masculine 
mode, doctors act; they diagnose and 
treat disease. Nurses, when functioning 
in the feminine mode, mediate; they make 
healing possible by putting patients in 
touch with their own strengths as well 
as letting them draw temporarily on the 
strengths of the nurse. But neither 
physicians nor nurses function exclusive- 
ly in one mode. Visualize a continuum 
with a masculine pole at one end and a 
feminine pole at the other, then plot 
the various kinds of nurses and physi- 
cians along it. Take nurses: near the 
masculine pole, one could place the in- 
tensive care unit nurse and the nurse 
practitioner. Both are primarily in- 
volved in practicing or assisting in 
the practice of medicine. They exercise 
a high degree of medical knowledge and 
technological expertise in the course of 
their work, although they temper this to 
varying degrees with the nurturing ways 
characteristic of the feminine mode. 
Moving toward the other end of the con- 
tinuum, one finds the hospital staff 
nurse who functions about equally in the 
masculine and feminine modes and, near 
the feminine pole, the psychiatric nurse, 
the public health nurse, the nurse in a 
long-term care setting, and the nurse- 
midwife. These nurses function in the 
masculine mode to an extent. For exam- 
ple, the nurse in a nursing home may be 
implementing a medical treatment plan 
for a patient with cardiac disease and 
the midwife must be prepared to deal 
with medical complications of pregnancy 
and birth. Nevertheless, all function 
predominantly in the feminine mode, deal- 
ing with the known and unknown forces 
affecting a person's state of health, 
creating an environment in which healing 

and wholeness can occur, and potentiat- 
ing a person's own strengths through a 
positive, helping relationship. 

Physicians can be placed along the 
same continuum. At the masculine pole, 
there are surgeons, radiologists, and 
pathologists who apply scientific prin- 
ciples and technologies to the solution 
of specific physiological problems — 
appendicitis, say, or leukemia. Toward 
the other end of the continuum are the 
pediatricians, family physicians, and 
psychiatrists who work largely in the 
feminine mode, listening, interpreting, 
supporting, counseling, teaching. In- 
ternists, like hospital nurses, can gen- 
erally be placed somewhere in the middle 
since they function about equally in 
each mode. But even when a nurse and 
physician appear at the same point on 
the continuum, the nurse will gravitate 
toward the nurturing mode and the physi- 
cian toward the problem-solving mode, 
for the masculine is never so highly de- 
veloped in nurses as it is in physicians, 
and the feminine is never so highly de- 
veloped in physicians as nurses. 

Distinctions do tend to become 
blurred when sex and profession are in 
counterpoise, as in the case of a male 
nurse or a female physician. My exper- 
ience has been that in such instances, 
sex-linked characteristics predominate. 
The male nurse is more likely to be 
problem-oriented, more aggressive and 
directed in his career goals and his 
bedside manner. Similarly, the female 
physician is likely to be more nurturing 
and more holistic in her outlook than 
her male colleagues, despite her train- 
ing in scientific problem solving. 

In my view, the professions of med- 
icine and nursing are, in effect, play- 
ing out the relationship of the mascu- 
line and feminine in this society with 
all the strength and effectiveness that 
this complementariness can offer, and 
subject to the distortions and weakness- 
es that exist in a culture where the 
masculine is consistently overvalued and 
the feminine undervalued. 


Nurturing the Feminine 
within the Profession 

The dichotomy is not between 
healing and care giving, for care giving 
is one form of healing. Rather, the 
conflict lies between the two modes of 
healing; nurturing and problem solving. 
This dichotomy may in fact be at the 
root of a related conflict, the one 
between nursing education and nursing 
service. The realities of nursing ser- 
vice, particularly cost control and the 
demands of scientific medicine, force 
professional nurses to function further 
toward the masculine pole than they 
desire. They become supervisors of 
auxiliary nursing personnel and exten- 
sions of the physician. Nursing educa- 
tion, on the other hand, holds up the 
ideal of care giving as "pure" nursing 
and demeans the involvement of nurses 
in medical or administrative matters. 
As a result, many practicing nurses are 
perpetually frustrated because what they 
saw in nursing was not what they got, 
and educators are marginated by adminis- 
trators and health planners who reject 
the ideal as unrealistic in terms of 
their budgets and the available nursing 

Reckoning with Scientific Supremacy 

Another implication is that al- 
though nursing has a unique contribution 
to make to health care, our profession 
must live for a while longer with the 
fact that it is the technology of medi- 
cine, the masculine element, which is 
most highly valued by this society. 
Physicians, who are seen as the embodi- 
ment of this technology, are granted 
great respect by their communities and 
the nation, and are remunerated accord- 
ingly with money, status, and authority. 
As Emma Jung put it in speaking to women 
in general: "Learning to cherish and 
emphasize feminine values is the primary 
condition of our holding our own against 
the masculine principle which is mighty 
in a double sense — both within the psy- 
che and without. "[2] Not only does the 
society outside seem to downplay the 
importance of nursing to healing, but 
nurses themselves are often guilty of 

the same ! 

Teaching Doctors How to Nurse 

The final implication is that the 
inherent compleraentariness of the two 
prototype healing professions requires 
that nurses move toward a rapprochement 
with medicine rather than draw the nurs- 
ing wagons into a tight circle to fight 
it off. The pendulum has swung about as 
far as it will toward the masculine pole. 
The public has already sensed that some- 
thing is missing in health care. In the 
chapter he contributed to the book Doing 
Better and Feeling Worse , Knowles, (Ed.), 
Dr. Leon Eisenberg makes the case of 
recovering the caring function of the 
physician. He writes that "the comfort 
that treatment brings — what has been 
termed 'caring' as opposed to 'curing' — 
is what accounts for the antiquity and 
the continuity of the physician's func- 
tion in society. Present day disen- 
chantment with physicians . . . probably 
reflects the perception by people that 
they are not being cared for." 

So the question arises — would it 
not be more useful for nurses to teach 
physicians how to be better nurses, 
rather than try to teach nurses how to 
practice medicine? Would we not be 
doing a great service to the public by 
turning hospitals and long-term care 
facilities into places where people can 
come to be nursed, places where they 
can enter into a therapeutic environment 
and relationships, while medical treat- 
ment occurs concurrently? (Carrying out 
a medical treatment plan is, after all, 
a medium through which nursing care is 
given.) And would it not be more effec- 
tive, for the long run, to opt for joint 
nursing-medical practices rather than 
independent nursing practices where pa- 
tients are still deprived of one of the 
two complementary healing modes? Granted, 
it often requires steely self-control, 
but I contend that the challenge for the 
nursing profession lies in preserving a 
balance between the masculine and femi- 
nine elements within ourselves and with- 
in the nursing profession. The world 
needs more of the healing influence and 
wisdom of the feminine. Nursing, as 

the feminine healing mode, can make a 
great contribution to the healing of 


1. Castillejo, J. C. Knowing Woman — A 
Feminine Psychology , New York: 
Harper Colophon Books, 1973, p. 99. 

2. Jung, E. Animus and Anima . Zurich: 
Spring Publications, 1974, p. 42. 

VeNeta Masson, R.N., M.A. , is a nurse on 
the staff of Community Medical Care in 
Washington, DC. She is author of Inter- 
national Nursing recently published by 



by Terri Pease Schwartz 

If I_ Should Die Before I Wake by 
Michelle Morris, published by Tarcher, 
distributed by Houghton Miflin, 1982. 

Michelle Morris, in this new book, 
has done an astounding thing. In writ- 
ing this novel, recently published by 
what appears to be a small house in Cal- 
ifornia, she has captured the experience 
of a traumatic childhood in a way that 
makes believers of all of us. 

The word "incest" usually has auto- 
matically paired itself with "taboo." 
For many people it calls to mind anthro- 
pologists' explanations of marriage out- 
side the clan, or elitist accounts of 
what were called "degenerate" families 
in which adult brothers and sisters mar- 
ried to produce weakened, immoral off- 
spring. But Michelle Morris makes clear 
what many women are beginning to speak 
aloud: that today incest, like all 
child abuse, means the ultimate perver- 
sion, not of sex, but of parental power. 

The main character here is Carla, 
the 17-year-old remnant of a six-year- 
old girl kidnapped by her father. It is 
an astonishingly real story, in which 
this girl's memories and emotions coa- 
lesce as she discovers the thoroughness 
of how she has been tortured, and how 
much that torture has isolated her from 
any life she might have claimed. 

There are many insights for the 
clinical worker or therapist in this 
novel. Morris includes two passages 
which surpass any technical writing I 
know of in conveying the magical/myster- 
ious way that small children experience 
pain and abandonment. In one of these 
(page 12), Carla recalls her wish for 

her mother to rescue her. The passage, 
where she tells her distant, lost mother 
about "the face . . . big and wet and 
there are dark smells all around me," 
about the "burn part . . . comes cause 
it's so fast now and it goes sharp like 
that and then it stops . . . it's heavy 
all over me and pushing down on rae all 
over . . ." says what it is actually 
like for a six-year-old who is raped. 
As a clinician who works with such child- 
ren, I feel sure that Morris is right, 
that she knows. 

Other portions of this book make it 
clear, to any reader, how obvious the 
continuation of torture is in the mind 
of the child who has known no other life. 
When Dean, a friend, and the outside per- 
son who discovers Carla's life, attempts 
to free Carla, it is as though the two 
of them are speaking different languages. 
Himself a foster child, and a victim of 
a different sort, Dean speaks to Carla 
of choosing, of being separate from her 
torture, from the hideous assaults of 
her father. Carla, apparently, cannot 
believe in such things. She follows 
Dean's wishes out of an accustomed blind 
necessity of obeying those who say they 
love her. It is only Carla's contact 
with a prior sense of herself — the re- 
awakening of her lost knowledge that she 
is someone other than her father's vic- 
tim that leads Carla to her first inde- 
pendent intention. 

This perhaps, is one frightening 
truth that emerges for the reader, for 
those who would help the victimized 
child. Our sense of the horror of in- 
cest, of brutality and our revulsion for 
the man who does these things is, too 
often, not shared by the victim. When a 
child has been taught that brutality is 
obvious, is as regular as breath, more 
frequent than quiet or love, she cannot 
believe that another life exists. The 
possibility that all lives are not like 
hers is less real than Santa Claus. The 
idea of peace, of happiness, is only a 
comforting fairy tale for many girls 
like Carla. When we, who wish to rescue 
such children hear the response "but 
he's my father," it is nearly impossible 
to understand the sense of inevitability 
that accompanies their misery. 


Michelle Morris captures this fully, 
and in doing so creates a frustratingly 
unreal person. Throughout If_ I_ Should 
Die ... we find out what happened, and 
how Carla reacted, but never who this 
person is who has been so tortured. But 
shortly after that frustration comes un- 
derstanding — that for the victim of this 
kind of abuse, she is no one else. A 
child so tortured grows up to be a vic- 
tim and little more. If we never find 
out who Carla is when she is not being 
raped, worried about being raped, or 
reacting to having been raped, it is 
because Carla has become nothing beyond 
such events. 

This then is the tragedy of incest, 
and the sharp, ugly truth of this novel. 
Children who are repeatedly, terribly 
robbed of their selves cannot — simply 
because we wish to rescue them — step out 
of their lives. When we, as lovers, as 
friends, as therapists encounter them 
they are empty of what could make them 
stand up and ally with us. Carla could 
not leave her father's house to start a 
new way of living with Dean. She could 
refuse to be tortured, but only by turn- 
ing the tables within that house. Had 
she left, the sudden emptiness of her 
person, the realization that she had, 
for all her life, grown only in the 
sophistication of her ability to avoid 
rape, to fantasize revenge, would have 
been a final, devastating blow. Take 
away her torture, and there would be no 
Carla left. The emptiness of victimized , 
tortured people points to the difficulty 
such women have in moving beyond their 
pasts. Many, many women who were vic- 
tims of childhood sexual abuse have 
started to write, to speak out — and in 
so doing to identify themselves as women 
who have learned to say "no" to such a- 
buse. Often, they strengthen this iden- 
tity by their work and example for other 
victims — giving lessons, as it were, in 
no-saying. That this is a far healthier 
response to an identity as victim is 
unquestionable. What jLs questionable 
though, is what else there is. How can 
we, as feminists, as helpers by profes- 
sion or by compassion, aid victims in 
becoming former victims and, finally, 
at becoming something, someone totally 

I wondered, on reading the last 
parts of this book, what could become of 
Carla. She says of it all, "The seal is 
broken," but I was left wondering who 
will help Carla to be more than this 
sordid past. Is it enough to be angry, 
to exact the ultimate revenge? For my- 
self, for my own wish that it all would 
never have happened to her, I wanted 
Carla to have a chance at more than say- 
ing no. I wanted her to have what may 
never be available to women who have 
been so hurt — for the "no!" the sense of 
inviolability and the right to selfhood 
to be as inevitable, as natural as her 
torture had been. Maybe this is too 
much to wish for. Morris wrote this 
novel in a way that makes clear that 
prolonged, hideous torture destroys a 
soul, that in such lives caring for 
one's own body means preserving anoth- 
er's property — leaving only self de- 
struction as an act of self possession. 

The ambiguity about Carla 's future 
may be the final revelation here — that 
once stolen, once destroyed, a life can 
never be what it should have been. 

Read this book. If you have been 
hurt it will reassure you that you did 
not know how to stop your pain — it will 
make very clear that you did not make 
your own prison, though you may have 
been made to be your own prisoner. If 
you have not been hurt, you will learn 
about damage to the core of being in a 
way that will make it impossible to ask, 
"How could she let that happen?" 

(Ma. SchwaAtz Xj> a pio^^on. at 
GoveAnote Statu [Xntvvxj^ity and woikA 
ai> a tkoAaptbt wttk AjuiQJst vtctimA . 
She. AA cuAtKLntly a doctoral candidate 
at CofinoZt Univ Witty.) 




Just start/ separate off a piece/ cut it off and let it go 
Nothing ever finishes/ only rolls on and on/ over and over 

My womb is rolling over 

a promissory note that comes due monthly 

beginning a new cycle of borrowing 

It is not an organized process. Lysis: 
Each cell a broken grocery bag 
Spewing out its contents 
A release of energy 

Flowing is letting go 

of something you don't need anymore. 

I want to flow like a mountain stream 

crackling cold and clear 

hurling myself in a delicious slide 

welcoming each obstacle as merely 

another angle from which to flow 

But I am a woman 

sometimes I flow tears and sometimes blood 

It is not a process I have learned. 

I have only learned to inhibit it. 

My toilet training was difficult you know. 

The memory of indescribable humiliation is programmed 

into my muscles to reinforce the habit of holding back. 

I wonder what it does to them to experience 

each month a slow leak beyond their control? 

I have been taught to compose, to be composed. 

Approval given to those forces in me that maintain order 

A horror of decomposition. 

But I carry in me a time for that, a time to discard. 

I need to let it happen/ and catch it on the page . . . 

— Alice Dan 


PART 2: Wellness: Getting There 

A Group Perspective 

by Donna Bands tra 

A week of diet and exercise means 
something different to each individual. 
The continued stretching of long-neglect- 
ed muscles has obvious physiological ad- 
vantages, and the concomitant release of 
stress and tension from both small and 
large muscle groups has an added psycho- 
logical benefit. There is heightened 
awareness of one's own body during a 
hearty workout and a communion with the 
spirit. There is also sweat, agony, 
pain, and exhaustion. 

Recently a group of approximately 
fifty south suburban Chicago women ex- 
perienced a week of vigorous physical 
exercise and dieting. Entitled "Slender 
Bender," the event was a women's physi- 
cal fitness camp sponsored by the local 
branches of the YMCA. The camp director, 
Marilyn Herbeck, also taught aerobic 
dancing (see her article on page 19 and 
our yoga teacher's article on page 21 ). 
Nestled in the pine forests of western 
Michigan and rolling around a private 
lake, Camp Pinewoods afforded all the 
amenities of a typical summer camp: log 
cabins, badly sagging beds with lumpy 
mattresses, chipmunks playing hide-and- 
seek in leaf piles and tree trunks, 
insects of every variety, etc. The 
planned activities ran the gamut from 
yoga, aerobics, jazzercise, and slim- 
living classes to the traditional horse- 
back riding, canoeing, swimming, and 
hiking. Meals were calorie-controlled 
and moderately diet-wise. However, por- 
tions were not restricted. Additionally , 
classes in nutrition were offered and 
food preparation tips and calorie-re- 
duced recipes were available so that the 
diet needn't stop upon return home. 

The final night of the camp found 
TCW Editor Helen Hughes leading the 
group through a series of creative games 
as described in Listening to the Body by 
Jean Houston. After four days of stren- 
uous physical exercise, it was time to 

exercise the brain, an often neglected 
muscle. The group was encouraged to do 
some "mental pushups" and use their ima- 
ginative powers. Following some relaxa- 
tion and focusing exercises, the women 
were asked to express in writing their 
feelings and thoughts at that moment in 
time. Where were they in the movement 
of their lives? What was different a- 
bout them since their arrival at Slender 
Bender? What changes did they antici- 
pate when they returned to their normal 
lives? Anonymity was guaranteed, and 
the participants were also invited to 
draw, should they decide to choose that 
mode of expression. 

The responses were many and varied. 
Some used drawings along with their nar- 
rative; others used art work to make the 
entire statement. The narratives were 
humorous, touching, optimistic, acquies- 

Many spoke of the release of the 
tensions of the work-a-day world and the 
opportunity to focus on their own selves 
for a rare change. Some expressed a ra- 
ther childlike feeling of being totally 
reliant on others. 

"The tension I felt before my arri- 
val seems to have subsided. I have a 
more relaxed frame of mind. Although 
the experience may be tiring, I am doing 
and enjoying something I want to do for 
myself, myself alone. It's up to me how 
well I do in this camp experience. I am 
trying to learn to discipline myself 
better. I feel as though this program 
has helped me a great deal." 

"The relaxation and busy program 
left no time for worry. I forgot all my 
problems at home. I enjoyed hearty 
laughter with my roommates, something I 
hadn't done in years. World problems 
were forgotten. Before leaving home I 
had a tremor — miraculously, it has left 

"I have had time to rest my mind 
since I've been here. I have been able 
to sort out some things by being away 


Staff of Camp Pinewood: Dixie Butts, Joy Goff, Marilyn 
Herbeck, Beatrice Hudson (deceased), Phyllis Marco, Ginger 

from the hustle and bustle of the city." 

Although it would appear that the 
release from task and role responsibilty 
was rather unanimous, one respondant 
found the freedom to be a difficult 
change from the norm. 

"The days seem long. It's hard to 
adjust the rhythms of my daily schedule 
to such a different time clock. Yet, 
it's good for me. Today, a rainy day, 
leads to a feeling of confinement I 
wouldn't have at home." 

Many women found the solitude of 
the forest and stimulation of physical 
exercise put them in a reflective frame 
of mind and presented a golden opportu- 
nity to reassess relationships with fam- 
ily, friends, and even their newly-met 
cabin mates. 

"These few days spent with women of 
all ages, types, shapes, and backgrounds, 
who arrived at a point simultaneously 
and came seeking the same goal, has 
brought me to an awareness of not being 
alone. We have all arrived along dif- 
ferent paths, yet we have come together 
to counsel and reinforce each other." 

Others reflected their own bodies 
and their attitudes toward them. Some 
women experienced profound changes in 
their self-perceptions, changes which 
they hoped would become permanent addi- 
tions to their lives and lifestyles. 
Many were optimistic that the behaviors 

fostered at Camp Pinewood would be trans- 
ferrable to their everyday lives. 

"I have started to feel that there 
is a possibility of returning my body to 
a much healthier and more attractive 
shape. I had reached a point of feeling 
that it was hopeless and almost an im- 
possibility of ever being fit and trim 
again. Staying fit is a daily job and 
cannot be left to a haphazard choice. 
It requires a decision, discipline, and 
determination. It's a way of life." 

"My body is more pleasing to me 
now. It is not perfect but it is good 
enough, and is probably as good as it's 
going to get. I accept my figure flaws 
and have no desire to devote a great 
deal of time to eliminating them." 

"My body and mind have become 
friends. From this point on we will go 
forward as companions rather than anta- 
gonists. Together we'll go complement- 
ing one another. The future looks 
bright and harmonious." 

One respondant was optimistically 

"Frankly, I can see no profound 
change in myself. This doesn't matter, 
though, as I am satisfied with even a 
small improvement. Actually, today was 
a 'down' day for me, and at this moment 
I do not feel that good about myself. 
Tomorrow will be better." 

The participants reflected not only 
on their bodies, but also on their psy- 
ches. There were optimistic statements 
and exhortations to change. Some were 
satisfied with the status quo. 

"I've reached a stage in my life 
when I find I do not have to prove my- 
self to anyone. It is a tranquil feel- 
ing I enjoy." 

"I have found I no longer have to 
fear old age, as the seniors I have met 
are wonderful. I no longer have to fear 
overweight, as overweight people are hu- 
man beings also." 


"The camp situation brings out some 
neglected aspects of my personality. I 
am capable of leadership and organiza- 
tion. At home there is little opportu- 
nity to use these skills." 

"Good minds exist outside our own 
tiny daily worlds. Age does not limit 
awareness. Communication is always pos- 

"At this stage in my life it is now 
time to expand my living zone. I am 
living again. What a joy to be able to 
hike up a hill, walk for four or five 
miles, to be alive and partake of the 
world! " 

the YMCA include a good deal of sensual 
expression — hip circles, shimmying, etc. 
It's accepted here without embarrassment. 
I like to do this sort of thing and oth- 
ers seem to also. Most of us are prob- 
ably too inhibited to do these movements 
on the dance floor or even for our hus- 
bands. I wonder if we could do these 
movements so uninhibitedly if they were 
presented solely as feeling good, and 
not as being good for our health and 

And finally, lest we not forget the 
awesomeness of a higher power, one woman 
wrote of reaching a spiritual level 
through a communion with nature. 

"My body will be treated with care. 
My brain is so full with new ideas, I 
feel like I am going to burst!" 

The common bond of womanhood was 
also a recurrent theme among the partic- 
ipants. Spending a week with only women 
opened a communication channel and al- 
lowed for awareness that may not other- 
wise have been possible. 

"I am impressed by the myriad of 
shapes and sizes of women's bodies — 
young women, slim and muscular, older 
women with stretched and scarred abdo- 
mens and big heavy breasts from years of 
childbearing. I like the camaraderie." 

"The best hour today was the canoe 
trip down the Muskegon River. Caught in 
a rainstorm, we had to put out on a 
steep bank, in deep mud. But, we coped." 

"My admiration for women, especial- 
ly in this group, increased tenfold. I 
am proud of womanhood — their spunk, 
their courage to try just about anything. 
Just a few days of companionship and es- 
pecially the time being alone makes me 
feel like I am part of this vast uni- 
verse. I shall be somewhat sad to leave 
Pinewood and the women here. I have not 
been lonely." 

"I saw a scarlet tanager, a bird I 
haven't seen since I was a child. I 
like to be off on my own witnessing the 
beauty of nature, the calm of an evening 
sunset, the sound of God's wonders, and 
to be blessed by seeing one of his rari- 
ties, a scarlet tanager." 

(M&* .B&nd&tna u> an admiyiUtAiatoK uujth 
a Au.ppleme.ntat Atafifi and home, help 
agmcy and a graduate. In 
HeaJUh VLanntng. She. aj> an advZ&o/Ly 
boaxd membex ofi The. QAeatLve. Woman 
and iaxu E<LiXo?uxUL AA&iAtant ofa the. 
{iAAt time, oi TCW.) 

One participant realized a sensual 
expression from the exercises. 

"The exercises we do here and at 



by Donna 
Bands tra 


Drawing by Althea Laitinen 

When Helen Hughes called and in- 
vited me to "Slender Bender," a women's 
YMCA sponsored physical fitness camp, I 
reacted positively and without hesita- 
tion. "Of course," I said, "I would 
like to spend five days in the pine for- 
ests of central Michigan, commune with 
nature and other women, and, most impor- 
tantly, diet and exercise." But under- 
neath the hearty assent was a rather 
strong reluctance to admit that I was 
not totally enamored with the idea of 
putting my body on display, even if it 
was with a group of women. However, not 
wanting to pass up an opportunity to 
shed some pounds and tighten some much- 
neglected muscles, and have, probably, 
my only vacation of the year, I packed 
my bags. 

Upon arriving at Camp Pinewood, we 
chose our lodging and settled in. As 
others began arriving, excitement levels 
rose and motivation was keen. Looks of 

eager anticipation and commitment could 
be seen on the faces of the participants. 
We all were there for a purpose, and to 
that end we would bend, stretch, reach, 
and touch until our muscles cried out in 
desperation to stop and rest. 

My anxieties about putting on my 
leotard in surroundings other than the 
privacy of my own home began to abate 
until I stumbled upon the bathroom or, 
as the brochure so aptly described it, 
the "wash house." To my horror, the 
showers were communal. My high school 
days flashed before my eyes and I waited, 
in my mind, for the hour bell to ring 
and summon a mad dash to Algebra II. 
Returning to reality, I made a mental 
note to determine the least popular 
shower time in order to shower solo. 
Unfortunately, it was sure to be either 
meal time or before dawn. 

That first night was spent getting 
acclimated to our surroundings and ac- 
quainted with our fellow slender benders. 
After a hearty walk made even more stren- 
uous by the continual swatting of mos- 
quitoes, we returned to the lodge for a 
group introductory session. We repre- 
sented all ages, from the early 20' s to 
the mid 70' s, numerous occupations — psy- 
chologist, housewife, student, retiree — 
and all socioeconomic levels. We were 
truly the proverbial mixed bag. 

The exercises began shortly there- 
after and the true camaraderie of the 
group was evoked. As the music swelled 
and the leader guided us along with 
shouts of "Keep those knees straight!" 
we were truly united in body, mind, and 
spirit. Together we would attempt to 
accomplish what we were unable to do, or 
had not done, individually. 

After this first invigorating ses- 
sion, a shower was definitely in order. 
Unfortunately for me, more of the par- 
ticipants concurred with this idea as 
they hurried from their cabins, towels 
and soap in hand. This was the moment I 
had dreaded, and I was destined to meet 
it head-on or sleep in my week's allot- 
ment of fresh sheets feeling like the 
inside of an old track shoe. Not one to 
pass up a challenge and yearning to be 


rid of my inhibitions, I bundled up my 
shower gear, gulped, and assumed my best 
air of nonchalance. 

To my surprise, once the clothes 
were slowly shed, each piece carefully 
folded and the towel hung securely on 
the nearest hook, I realized that baring 
my body was not so bad. As I looked 
around me at the laughing and chatting 
women, some comfortably naked, others 
with their towels precariously wrapped 
about their torsoes, I saw an incredible 
array of sizes and shapes. But what 
impressed me even more was the ease with 
which some of these women carried their 
bodies. Most importantly, I was awed 
with the incredible beauty of women's 
bodies, no matter the size or shape. It 
was at this moment that I realized that 
somehow I had been duped all these years 
into thinking that unless my body was a 
perfect size seven, a real 36-26-36 
(although by today's standards this is 
large), it was unacceptable not only to 
myself, but to others. Sometime during 
my early socialization process and the 
crucial formative years, I had been led 
to believe that a female body should 
only be smooth and sleek, hairless in 
all the right areas, free of all bumps, 
lumps, cellulite, and stretch marks. 
Obviously, 1 had learned my lesson well 
because I had continued to shroud my 
body in clothes, robes, towels, and the 
like whenever possible, even in the 
presence of my intimate companions. For 
far too long I had harbored a strong 
self-loathing of my physical body, a 
very destructive and unnecessary dislike, 
and one that, up until my camping exper- 
ience, I had never questioned. 

My experience at Slender Bender 
afforded me the opportunity to view my 
body differently, and see it as that of 
a mature woman and mother. This reali- 
zation allowed for a different perspec- 
tive on diet and exercise. To firm up 
one's body is fine for all the right 
reasons — to increase cardiovascular en- 
durance; to keep muscles toned; and a 
proper diet and nutrition is necessary 
for optimal maintenance of the body's 
vital organs. To reduce for purely aes- 
thetic reasons and strive for sizes and 
shapes which are not within the normal 

range for one's own body type is non- 

The remainder of my week at Slender 
Bender, after I had arrived at this mon- 
umental realization, was no less enjoy- 
able but certainly less intense that I 
had anticipated. Gone was the despera- 
tion to stretch each muscle to the maxi- 
mum and lose each and every ounce of ad- 
ipose tissue possible. In its place was 
a newly perceived approach to diet and 
exercise; strenuous activity and proper 
nutrition were geared to the optimal 
maintenance of the organism, instead of 
the quest to become a Bo Derek clone. 
Each lap run was performed for the heart 
and the respiratory system, each deep 
knee bend for the long-neglected thigh 
muscle. Weight loss was still certainly 
a goal, but a goal with new objectives. 
Gone was the compulsion to weigh 110 
pounds and wear a size seven, along with 
the trepidation of stepping on a scale 
or shedding my clothes. Slender Bender 
gave me far more than I had ever expect- 
ed. Instead of returning home with less 
of me, I returned with more — a new and 
more positive self-perception, and the 
sense that my body is OK. 

(For a further discussion of why women 
have been conditioned to dislike their 
bodies, read The Obsession; Reflections 
on the Tyranny of Slenderness by Kim 
Chernin. Harper and Row: New York, 



by Marilyn Her beck 

We're only given one body, so we'd 
better take care of what we're given. 
We can take care of our bodies in three 
ways: 1) proper diet, 2) exercise, and 
3) proper rest. 

It is very true that we feel well 
when we eat well. A proper diet for 
most people is one that consists daily 
of foods from the four food groups: 
1) milk group (cheese, yogurt, ice 
cream); 2) meat group (fish, poultry, 
eggs, nuts, dry beans, soy extenders); 

3) fruits and vegetables (citrus fruit 
daily, dark, green leafy or orange 
vegetables) three or four times weekly; 

4) grain group (breads, whole wheat, 
cereals, rice); and some fats. 

If one food group is eliminated for 
a length of time, the body misses it and 
will tell in some way. 

Proper diet also means not overeat- 


I believe that dally exercise gives 
us more pep and energy for the whole day. 
Exercise gives one a lift from the blues, 
a sense of well-being, an improved self- 
image, and an overall good feeling. 

There are many types of exercise. 
One that gives an aerobic effect Is the 
best choice. Aerobics is activity that 
gets the heart rate up to a certain 
level figured according to age. That 
level should be maintained for a period 
of 30 minutes, three times a week. Many 
sports are appropriate and anyone should 
be able to find one that she enjoys. 
Exercise should not be boring, but some- 
thing to look forward to. Exercise is 
also a good remedy for stress, and aero- 
bic exercise has been known to bring 
down high blood pressure. 

The proper amount of rest is to be 
figured out individually. Some people 
get along very well with very little 
rest, while others need at least eight 
hours of sleep a night to feel well. 

Photo of Marilyn Herbeck courtesy of Star Publications 


Overweight seems to be the American 
disease, and oddly enough, one of the 
few diseases most of us have in our pow- 
er to curb. All people are not created 
equal when it comes to weight. There 
are many reasons for being overweight: 
lack of knowledge about food, eating 
excessive amounts, poor physical fitness 
(lack of exercise), poor eating habits, 
use of food to cope with stress, genetic 
factors, metabolic or glandular problems, 
fear of being attractive to the opposite 
sex, inability to differentiate between 
hunger and boredom. 

Age is no excuse for overweight. 
Most people think of a diet as something 
to go off of at the end of. That's why 
fad diets and fasting don't work. A 
good weight loss program would be one to 
live with forever, occasionally deviat- 
ing from it. 

There are alternatives to a healthy 
weight loss program, such as diet pills, 
shots, surgery, hypnosis, staples in the 
ears, and wiring the mouth shut. But 
these methods are certainly not to be 

Exercise should be incorporated 
when proceeding with a weight loss pro- 
gram. Using exercise, a higher propor- 
tion of weight loss will come from fat 
deposits, the energy we have stored as 
fat in our bodies. Some form of exer- 
tion or activity added to the day can 
give a lift and relieve the boredom or 
blues that frequently stimulate eating. 
Very strenuous exercise right before a 
meal will frequently decrease the appe- 
tite markedly. Along with improved tone, 
the cardiovascular system will regain 
its ability to respond more rapidly to 
stress. Your body will regain a firm 
athletic shape, not muscular like a 
weight lifter. There's also more incen- 
tive to change food habits . . . why 
exercise, then overeat and destroy all 
the benefits? 

1 . Plan ahead — plan meals a week in ad- 
vance, go shopping with your list and 
stick to it. 

2. Get a small calorie counter book to 
help you find out the most you can 
eat with the least amount of calories. 

3. Plan your daily menus around the four 
food groups, and vary your menus. 

4. Never, ever go shopping when you are 

5. Keep a daily record of your food con- 
sumption so you can figure your par- 
ticular intake. 

6. Keep fresh, cleaned vegetables ready 
to eat in the refrigerator, to help 
you get through the "hard" times. 

7. Never eat more than 500 calories at 
the evening meal. 

Good eating habits pay off — try 


A good book to read on weight con- 
trol is The Women Doctor's Diet Book for 
Women by Dr. Barbara Edelson. 

(Ma HeAb&ck lt> Women' & VajizcXom, out the. 
H<vive.y yjliCA and hcu woKkud am the. 
phy^ZcaZ {itYieAb {JLeJLd. {on. 77 yea/a,.) 

Here are some of the best hints we 
have found to really help in the battle 
of the bulge. 


by Ginger Plys 

Is it possible to isolate the 
"woman" in the practice of Hatha Yoga? 
Yoga is for everyone, young or old, male 
or female; that is the beauty of it. We 
do have male enthusiasts, of course, and 
the guru image is male; but in the West- 
ern culture the "doers" have been pre- 
dominantly female. 

In Eastern culture, where yogis and 
swamis are revered, Hatha Yoga has been 
dominated by the male for centuries, 
though some yoginis became known through- 
out the provinces. In Buddist countries 
every young man spends two weeks or more 
in a monastery, learning how to concen- 
trate and meditate, to prepare him for 
maturity. It is only in recent years 
that the government of India has recog- 
nized the value of Hatha Yoga and has 
begun teaching the asanas to the general 
population. Hatha Yoga is in unique 
harmony with the Hindu philosophy that 
embraces the peaceful, introspective de- 
velopment of the whole person, spiritu- 
ally and physically. 

Our Western culture and frenetic 
way of life, on the other hand, seem in 
direct opposition to the ideals of Hatha 
Yoga. Possibly because Yoga is not ag- 
gressive, not macho or competitive, it 
has been practiced more by women than by 
men in our society. While the popular 
conception of Yoga is one of gentleness, 
a newcomer is always surprised to find 
that it requires strength, plus the abil- 
ity to concentrate, in order to become 

Hatha Yoga works on the whole per- 
son using three basic paths: the asanas 
(exercises), pranayama (breath control) 
and meditation. It is not a violent 
form of exercise; rather, the asanas 
consist of slow, studied movements, re- 
quiring concentration to work into and 
to maintain. They are punctuated with 
periods of breathing exercises and re- 
laxation. The relaxation itself is one 
of the most difficult aspects of Yoga 

to conquer, asking us to totally release 
the physical and mental tensions that 
bind us. Because the movements are slow 
and because they can be varied or sim- 
plified to fit the individual, Yoga can 
be practiced by anyone at any age. Since 
one of its main objectives is the health 
of the spine, it is particularly suited 
to the well-being of senior citizens. 
When the advanced asanas are done com- 
pletely and properly, however, they are 
quite strenuous and require a buildup of 
stamina. They also require a good deal 
of patience. The slow stretching of the 
muscles is essential. Rapid, unplanned 
movements can be harmful and are of no 
use in achieving the desired results. 

Fortunately, women have a double 
edge in Yoga. As a rule their bodies 
are more flexible than men's, making 
them excellent physical prospects for 
Yoga.* In Yoga, flexibility is the name 
of the game. The asanas flow naturally 
and gracefully. But more important, wo- 
men come to Yoga equipped with the gift 
of patience. Bred into the female psy- 
che, part and parcel with the maternal 
instinct, over the years, were patience, 
endurance, reconciliation, pacifism. 
When women carry these attributes into 
a Yoga class, they can't lose! 

*Note: I have seen a group of middle- 
aged women, versed in Yoga, perform 
flexibility and Yoga exercises more eas- 
ily than 20-year-old male track stars. 
Though the athletes were in top physi- 
cal condition otherwise, they had not 
been exposed to flexibility training 
and were, therefore, more prone to 
injury on the track. Yoga is slowly 
gaining acceptance, however, and is be- 
coming recognized by fitness experts as 
one of the best conditioners for other 

(M4. Ply& ha* bczn a student o£ Hatha 
Yoga fioi ten yeaAA and a tza.oM.QA 0(J 
yoga ^on. thmo. yaaxh.] 


by Linda Galiotto 

When you say you have to lose 
weight you seem to think of all the 
extra dead weight you've been carrying 
around. I know I did. I had a total of 
100 pounds to lose before I could even 
begin to look "healthy." In the last 
ten months I have lost 80 of those 

The first thing people say when 
they see me is, "How did you do it?" I 
really don't have an answer, at least 
not the one they want to hear. They are 
waiting to discover the miracle method 
to weight loss. "After all," they say, 
"if she could do it. . . ." People be- 
come bored when I tell them that it was 
simply a matter of making a decision to 
lose those extra pounds and then stick- 
ing to it. They really don't want to 
hear that the magic method is nothing 
more than sensible eating and determina- 

I have to admit that certain events 
in my life influenced my decision. I 
had gained a steady 10 to 15 pounds a 
year for ten years. As I became more 
comfortable with my surroundings, I be- 
came less aware of myself. I would go 
to work in the morning, eat a few sweet 
rolls, snack until lunchtime, have a 
massive lunch, and wait until it was 
time to go home for dinner. After din- 
ner I would be bored so I would sit in 
front of the television set with a bag 
of potato chips or popcorn and eat my 
way through prime time. 

Unfortunately, I had a companion 
who was also content with this lifestyle. 
I had been going out with the same per- 
son for over five years. His energy 
levels were even lower than mine. After 
the fourth year of this monotony, I was 
beginning to realize that there was more 
to life than sitting at home every night 
watching television and stuffing your 
face. It took another year of indeci- 
sion before I was ready to act on this 

Gertrude Stein once said that being 
fat "is a state of mind that helps keep 
you from fulfilling certain frightening 
obligations." My obligation was to my- 
self. I avoided the responsibilty of 
decision-making for years as I hid be- 
hind layers of fat, accepting life as it 
was. I knew I wanted more but I was 
afraid of losing what I perceived as the 
security which I already had. 

My first major decision for change 
was to enroll in a graduate degree pro- 
gram. My television companion did not 
like the idea of having to watch the 
tube alone and many arguments ensued. 
It was then that I realized I had a lot 
more weight to lose than that which was 
on my body. I had to get rid of the 
dead weight sharing my position in front 
of my television! Once I admitted that, 
half the battle had been won. 

I became active at school and was 
offered a part-time teaching position at 
a vocational school. Suddenly there was 
no time to eat. I started losing weight 
without even trying. I lost 15 pounds 
in this manner which encouraged me to 
continue to try to lose more. That was 
that. I've been on a diet ever since. 
I check in with my family physician once 
a month to make sure that I'm not over- 
doing it and to get a little moral sup- 
port. I have been losing an average of 
eight to ten pounds a month. 

My entire attitude seems to have 
changed as well as healthier attitudes 
of others toward me. I was shocked when 
an old friend of my brother's asked me 
out on a date. First of all, it had 
been over five years since I had been on 
a real date and I had forgotten what to 
do. Second, I could see that he no 
longer viewed me as that "jolly sister 
of so-and-so" but that he was seeing me 
as a woman. It was a revelation to me 
that I was attractive to someone. When 
I was overweight I perceived myself as 
unappealing, and if someone said I was 
appealing I assumed they were lying. 

My own self-awareness has height- 
ened with each pound I've lost. Little 
by little I've realized that I can ac- 


complish almost anything I set my mind 
to. I no longer have to hide behind 
a wall of fat. The obligations that 
frightened me before are no longer 

I'm not trying to advocate a wide- 
spread dumping of boring boyfriends, but 
I do recommend taking a good look at 
yourself and your surroundings. Self- 
assessment is a difficult but necessary 
task. If you're not perfectly content 
with your current lifestyle, do some po- 
sitive thinking, try making some changes 
and see what can happen. It certainly 
worked for me. 

(Ma. GaJLLotto, a giaduatz Atudznt at 
V<l Paul UwivzA^tty *a a i>uA\)<Ly 
anaZyAt at the. Jotnt CommL&Aton 
on AccAedt^atton ofi HoAp-itaLb. She 
kcu> lo*t 90 lb*, tn the, paAt yeoJi.) 





by Elizabeth A. Havey 

Norman Cousins, author of the re- 
vealing Anatomy of an Illness and of the 
new book Human Options , has written: 
"Most people think they are immortal — 
until they get a cold, then they think 
they are going to die within the hour." 
There is unbelievable truth in this 
statement, truth that could save all of 
us a lot of pain, time, and money if we 
only sought it out. Our bodies are our- 
selves and we must not just walk around 
inside of them, ignoring them like a 
pesky neighbor — we must cultivate and 
care for them — from the very beginning ! 

When I was 12 I told my mother I 
didn't want to have large, full breasts 
as she had. I pictured myself slim and 
flat, moving gracefully but ever so 
slowly into adulthood. My body was 
lithe and vibrant and strong; my youth 
made me capable, limber; nothing could 
exhaust me. 

When I was 19 I was. glad of my 
ample figure. I was in college where I 
got by on six hours of sleep, skipped 
breakfast, put in "all-nighters", cut 
swimming class and ate two desserts if I 
didn't like the entree in the college 
dining room. I . pictured myself bril- 
liant and lovely, planning my future 
ever so carefully. 

When I was 22 I had a teaching ca- 
reer, worked an eight-hour day, taught 
another class at night, partied two or 
three nights on the weekends and had a 
great time. I pictured myself the total 
teacher, the young, exciting wife. And 
I was — but I'd crash for days at a time 
I was so tired. 

When I was 26 and pregnant I 
bragged about how little weight I had 
gained. I skimmed the nutrition pam- 
phlets and never exercized. I pictured 
myself in a long white gown nursing and 
rocking my baby. But I was edgy and 

exhausted when I tried to nurse and my 
baby had colic. 

Once at 31 when I was borrowing a 
cake recipe, my friend who had spent the 
morning running suggested that I take a 
nutrition course. At the time she had 
said that it would help me prepare meals 
for my daughter. I know now she direct- 
ed the need to me. But I thought about 
the inconvenience, how boring it would 
be. Anyway I didn't need any health 
tips. I was fine. 

And then I was 32 and pregnant 
again. And then after my second child's 
birth I could hardly get out of bed in 
the morning. I had developed low blood 
sugar. And the backache that I had ig- 
nored got more persistent. My seasonal 
colds became monthly. I pictured myself 
young and vibrant again, but I wasn't. 

Drawing by Althea Laitinen 


Now I'm 35. I've had these minor 
health problems, but they've still been 
problems and they've made me ask, "Why 
is this happening to me at 35? I'm 
young, I'm vibrant. I shouldn't be hav- 
ing these or any problems!" 

But I can't kid myself any more. 
I can no longer have a childish, every- 
thing is wonderful attitude. I can no 
longer ignore the one thing that all of 
us consistently ignore day after day — 
our own bodies. There were times, many 
times, when I neglected normal day-to- 
day health practices because I had a 
paper due, or lesson plans to prepare or 
later a house to clean or work associat- 
ed with my children. I was not raised 
to consider that if you brush your teeth 
everyday and take care of ■ that part of 
your body, that you should also exercise 
frequently, eat right, and work preven- 
tive health measures into your lifestyle. 

At this point in my confession the 
questions arise: Why wasn't I aware of 
this? Why wasn't I jogging like every- 
body else and eating in health food 
restaurants, etc.? I wasn't, precisely 
because the trend, the movement toward 
good health hadn't taken off when I was 
growing up. In the 60' s, JFK saw the 
need and stressed physical fitness for 
all Americans. Heart disease and cancer 
were on the rise. Most often at that 
time physical fitness was relegated to 
gym class. In college we drank coke for 
breakfast; no one jogged; we sunbathed 
and never swam, though the campus of my 
college was on Lake Michigan, and we all 
smoked like crazy. I remember some of 
the younger students having health food 
snacks in their rooms. We thought them 
a little odd and went off to consume 
candy bars and brownies from home. 

When I graduated from college the 
drug scene was in full swing. The teens 
I taught in high school cared not at all 
for their health and many of them exper- 
imented with drugs. When I asked one 
boy if he was concerned about what this 
might mean in the future he scoffed at 
me saying that we'd all be blown away 
sooner or later and there was no reason 
to take preventive measures. 

Certainly things are changing now. 
The fight against smoking rages, health 
foods can be purchased at the supermar- 
ket and a drive down a city street or a 
suburban highway affords the view of at 
least one jogger. "Health nut" is no 
longer a derisive term. 

Of course, as in all things, the em- 
phasis sometimes is carried to extremes. 
Today, more than ever, the image of a 
beautiful body is before us. Bodies are 
emphasized and not always for the pure 
motive of health and a healthy life. 
Bodies are a "modus operandi" to get a 
man, a woman, a job, a friend — anything. 
Bodies are used to sell anything. Skin, 
the outer layer that covers the essen- 
tial makeup of a real person, is consid- 
ered so important that there are creams 
and salves for every inch of it. A re- 
cent novel, Living Alone by John Givens , 
used skin as a symbol of the surface 
lifestyle many people are adopting. The 
characters in the novel spend hours tan- 
ning their skin, rubbing it using spe- 
cial lotions, caring nothing for the 
hearts and souls of those around them or 
for their own inner selves. There are 
excesses in everything. 

But the .basic point should be that 
each of us has 'only one skin, one body, 
one set of organs and muscles and we 
should spend some time contributing to 
their upkeep. That time should be a 
natural, normal part of life — something 
available to everyone, not requiring a 
fancy health club or a closet full of 
designer sport clothes. 

A lead article in a recent issue of 
Time magazine stressed that more than 
ever things are changing. Today the 
trend i£ toward fitness, and more and 
more people are involved daily in taking 
extra care of their bodies, their health. 
The article underlined the fact that 
health is a billion dollar business — 
jogging, swimming, weight lifting, 
dancercizing, exercising, jazzercising, 
aerobics. I say bravo all the same; 
this can be money well spent. I'm not 
referring to the prancing-on-the-beach- 
in-a- bikini-to- attract-males results, 
but the good muscle tone, strong heart 
beat, extra energy results. 


Dr. Richard Selzer, a surgeon and 
writer, says in his collection of essays, 
Mortal Lessons , that we are all working 
daily against natural negatives as we 
use our 208 bones : 

"But this man who thrust himself 
from the earth, who wore the stars of 
heaven in his hair, was guilty of over- 
weening pride. In act most audacious, 
he had defied nothing less than the law 
of gravity. (He stood up.) He was to 
pay dearly for such high imposture. The 
vertebrae, unused to their new columnar 
arrangement, clipped, buckled, and wore 
out. Next, the arches of the feet fell. 
The hip joints ground to a halt. . . . 
Worse still, our soft underparts have 
given way. Under the sag of our guts, 
we bulge into hernia. We turn to soft 

If, as Selzer says with tongue in 
cheek, we are all destined for such an 
end, I congratulate those who will un- 
dertake to learn to use the body proper- 
ly, who will work to get good mileage 
from it, and who will remember that 
there is no trade in. 

Nutrition is also an important as- 
pect of the total health picture. Diet, 
to me, does not mean lose weight. Diet 
means sensible, well-balanced, wholesome 
eating. Jane Brody in her new book Jane 
Brody's Nutrition Book takes the right 
approach by explaining that fad diets 
tend to throw your nutritional intake 
off balance; one stresses carbohydrates, 
another protein. Brody emphasizes whole 
grains, vegetables, and small portions 
of meat. She advocates a "fling" once 
in a while — dinner out, for instance, 
where one eats and eats. This fling can 
be altered by careful eating habits the 
rest of the week and no loss of vitamins, 
amino acids and nutrients in the process. 

alter your energy level and lower your 
ability to cope as the years go on. It 
is best to stick to simple eating habits 
and to eat less. Four small meals a day 
are far superior to two giant ones. En- 
ergy levels rise when the body is not 
overloaded with calories. 

Finally, a person's vision of good 
health and a long life have to contain a 
holistic approach. The mind is a power- 
ful factor in all of this and a frantic 
mental outlook can blur and harm the 
physical image one may be trying to 
create. It all goes back to something 
we rarely think about until, as Norman 
Cousins has said, we are sick, or until 
something hurts or is broken: we have 
to take care of ourselves! 

When I was 24 and feeling good I 
told everyone I was a sedentary person — 
that I'd rather sit and read than jog. 
Now that I'm 35 and my back hurts after 
an hour of sitting I'm up and out. I 
have muscles to tone, exercises to ac- 
complish — I picture myself active and 
healthy and I've got a lot of cultivat- 
ing and caring to do before the image 
comes clear. 

(Ma. Havdy aj> a. {k.<l<l lance. wuuteA 
mtwubtoA i.n keaJLth niuejtvick.) 

I find a good rule to follow is 
"nothing in excess." Too much of any 
one type of food can be harmful. People 
have eaten so many carrots that their 
skin has acquired a yellow tinge from 
the carotene. On the other hand, of 
course, a steady diet of prepackaged, 
frozen and chemically laced food will 




the house is a dark corner. 

I pull the blanket closer, 
padding to thermostats, 
trying to coax in heat. 

The kitchen tiles rub 
cold faces against 
my bare feet. 

Still snuggled in my makeshift 
shawl, I turn on 
gas burners, open 
curtains, start fire. 

The neighborhood's awake — 

cars starting, radio news, 

milkman clinks, 

early papers. 

But the house is still dead. 

And frozen cold. 

— Linda Ritchie 




Not seen for what she knows to be her truth 

she knows the lie: that she is understood 

by fools who, proclaiming their judgments good, 

speak from faceless mouths; mouths without a tooth. 

She will reveal her secrets to a few — 

a special few, like me, by her are taught 

to read from minds and play her songs of thought. 

We in return . . . there's nothing we can do. 

I cannot say, of course, what can't be said, 

and sometimes think my feelings never show. 

And what she means, I think she'll never know; 

my Book of Hours: words veiled though well-read. 

For no one ever sees her as they ought — 

a fragile fallen star the world has caught. 

— Linda Ritchie 


PART 3: Women In Sport 


by Margaret Brady 

And they're off . . . and running. 
Women, that is. And there's no stopping 
them this time. They might have tried 
to pull "K.V." (Katherine) Switzer out 
of the men-only Boston Marathon in 1967 
— because she was a woman — but there's 
no way to stop the thousands upon thou- 
sands of women who have taken to the 
streets, alleys, and backroads of their 
communities for fitness' sake. 

Since 1972, when the running boom 
in America really took off, various 
myths about what was going to happen to 
women who run have been popping up. 
Unfortunately, responsible research and 
information about women and running was 
not readily available . . . until now, 
as the health hazards for women runners 
are, one by one, being cast aside for 
the myths that they are. 

One such hazard was the "prolapsed" 
(or fallen) uterus. "I think we've seen 
that that's been proven to be a myth," 
commented Judy Lutter, president of the 
Melpomene (named after the first woman, 
a Greek, to run the Olympic Marathon in 
1896) Institute for Women's Health Re- 
search in St. Paul Minnesota. 

"That's one of the several things 
men worried about," she added, "since 
there is no evidence of this." A mara- 
thon runner herself (her "personal best" 
is 2:56), 42-year-old Lutter is a re- 
search design specialist with master's 
degrees in educational psychology and 
American studies. Lutter also works 
part-time at the Science Museum of 
Minnesota in addition to coordinating 
Melpomene research programs. 

Together with Susan Cushman, 32, 
a medical student at the University of 
Minnesota, who is also a runner and 
vice president of Melpomene, Lutter 
helped develop Melpomene in the late 
1970 *s; today it is a nonprofit agency 
designed to perform research and gather 

information about physically active and 
athletic women. Theirs is a one-of-a- 
kind institute in a country where most 
athletic research and information con- 
cerns men. Melpomene researchers have 
their work cut out for them, since there 
are many more unanswered than answered 
questions about women and running. 

Currently Melpomene's research 
staff members are studying the develop- 
ment of children born to 195 women who 
ran throughout their pregnancy. The 
women themselves, Lutter said, had "no 
problems" with running during pregnancy. 

Staff members are also studying the 
role that body fat plays in active women 
who experience amenorrhea (menstruation 
cessation), and whether or not menstrua- 
tion returns once the activity level is 
decreased. On the average, women are 
said to have ten percent more fat than 
men. Amenorrhea has reportedly occurred 
in women whose fat content has dropped 
below 18 percent. 

"It will be three to five years 
before we know anything for sure (about 
amenorrhea)," Lutter believes. "Yes, 
there are menstrual irregularities, but 
it's not a cause for major concern." 
She noted that a study in California of 
200 non-menstruating women athletes was 
finding osteoporosis (breakdown of the 
bones, normally seen in elderly women). 
It is believed that hormonal changes 
from extensive physical activity may 
have negative effects on the bones. 

"It (the possibility of osteoporo- 
sis in non-menstruating women) should be 
studied more," Lutter said, "but it's 
not a concern for the majority of run- 
ning women." 

The relationship of running to var- 
ious menstrual symptoms has been studied, 
and the general consenus is that running 
decreases bloating, cramping, and men- 
strual depression, Lutter said. Some 
women runners also note a lessening in 
menstrual flow. "And generally, once 


■f I 



menstruating women get out to run, they 
feel a lot better .... The hard part 
is getting out the front door. But once 
they do, they generally find it helpful," 
Lutter said. 

Another myth that women have been 
subjected to is that their breasts sag 
from running. There is no evidence to 
defend such a claim, Lutter believes. 

Writing in Running Free (Putnam 
books), Dr. Joan Ullyot, a pathologist 
and marathon runner, states that breasts 
"are supported mainly by their own con- 
tent of glands and fat. 'Sagging' oc- 
curs because of age and hormonal changes, 
which reduce this supportive filling. 
Sports are not the culprit." 

Drawing by Althea Laitinen 

Most women, Lutter has found, "who 
are large or small breasted, find it 
helpful to wear a sportbra of some sort" 
merely to decrease the amount of bounc- 
ing of the breasts. 

And it's also a myth that women 
runners can eat just about anything they 
like. "Most women who start a running 
program do show a weight loss in the 
first year," Lutter noted, "but most 
women are 10 to 15 pounds above weight 
anyway, and the weight loss slows down 
in the second year. Women become very 
well-adapted to working on less and less 

Unfortunately, even women runners 
can't forget calories, Lutter believes. 
She herself has an extremely low metabo- 


lism and has found that "even if I run 
70 to 80 miles a week, I only need 800 
calories a day." The extra layer of fat 
that helps women runners past the wall 
in the marathons also obviates "carbing 
up," or eating a lot of carbohydrates 
in order to build up the level of glyco- 
gen fuel for the muscles. 

In general, when it comes to women 
and running, often the negative aspects 
of a particular medical finding are 
picked up and blown out of proportion, 
Lutter believes. "There's a lot of ir- 
responsible reporting," she commented. 

Should all women run? Lutter 
doesn't think so. "All women can be 
runners. But it's not a good idea. 
There are lots of other sports to fit an 
individual's body and lifestyle better." 
Certain anatomical peculiarities, such 
as bow-leggedness or having one leg 
longer than the other, pose problems for 
the prospective runner, Lutter believes. 
And there's also the problem of "mental 
incompatibility. There are some women 
who truly don't enjoy it — so it's not 
worth it for them to slog off three or 
four miles disliking what they're doing. 
These people might be better off finding 
a pool, biking, playing tennis. Running 
is the most convenient sport, but it's 
not the ideal sport for all." 

However, Lutter feels that the phy- 
sical benefits far outweigh the risks. 
"It's physical fitness combined with 
mental health. There's a lot of psy- 
chological research that is yet to be 
done," Lutter said, "but we've seen 
major changes in women who move from a 
life of dormancy to a life with exercise. 
Exercise will change one's life in a 
complex way, often bring about a new 
self-image. It's not just a matter of 
more muscles and cardiovascular fitness. 
. . . But there's a lot of research 
still to be done," she concluded. 

In the meantime, however, women 
like 66-year-old Algene Williams of Park 
Forest are going to continue to run — no 
matter what. Contrary to what many 
friends and neighbors think, it was not 
Algene 's 68-year-old marathon-running 
husband, John, who got her interested in 

running two and one-half years ago. "I 
started running for my health," Algene 
insists. "I had an artery bypass op- 
eration, and after that I just wasn't 
feeling good. I thought about running, 
but I didn't ask my doctor because I 
was sure he'd tell me not to do it. I 
thought, 'what have I got to lose?' 
And I feel so much better now," Algene 

"It did work for me. I don't have 
headaches anymore, I have more energy, 
though I've always had a lot of energy. 
But this just gives me a good feeling." 

Most recently Algene completed 
(without stopping) the Park Forest Labor 
Day Scenic ten-mile race. Not bad for a 
woman who, just months before, in Janu- 
ary and March had a sum total of three 
hernias removed. After five months of 
recuperation, and no running, "it was 
harder to get back into running than 
ever before, but I'm so glad I did be- 
cause I feel real good again," Algene 
said. "I figure I'll be in my peak 
once I'm in my 70 's," she joked. 

And with no more hernias, she 
figures she'll be able to cut loose in 
next year's scenic ten-mile race, as 
well as attempt her very first marathon 
in Chicago next fall. 

"I'm going to train for it slowly 
and patiently," Algene said, "and I'm 
going to have to stop myself, because 
I'm usually 'go, go, go!'" 

"I never thought about running 
being unladylike. When I was younger 
I was a sandlot baseball player, and I 
used to beat the boys! I also did horse- 
back riding, ice skating, bicycling . . . 
I never thought I was unliberated. I've 
never felt restricted; I've always been 
liberated. So what, if I want to run, 
I'll run. These women runners are com- 
ing up fast; they're not far behind some 
of these men. It'll be a great day when 
a woman passes the finish line first. I 
think it's a possibility. I see more 
men collapse at races than women. It's 
just an observation; I don't know that 
it means anything." 


Currently Algene does her training 
in the morning, usually as early as 6:00 
a.m. "It's good to get out in the morn- 
ing," Algene feels. "Things always hap- 
pen during the day, and you may not have 
time to get to it. Training is a fun 
run for me everyday, but when I get in a 
race, I want to win!" And in her age 
category, Algene usually is the winner. 

"I just wish more older people 
would get out and do this. A lot of it 
is mind over matter — it's what you tell 
your body to do. Tell yourself, 'It's 
me and my body — here we come!'" 

"The surgeon who operated on me 
thought I was in great shape," Algene 
recalled. "And I used to go to the chi- 
ropractor for my back two times a year. 
I haven't gone now for over one year. 
My back feels fine. . . . All this stuff 
falls into place." 

"I used to be quiet, too," Algene 
said, apologizing for running on. Her 
enthusiasm for her sport is apparent. 

Like many of her fellow runners, 
Algene is an avid reader and collector 
of information on running. But now that 
she's read it all, Algene is ready to 
write her own book — a book filled with 
the things that she has found work for 
her. "I'm going to make an Algene book,' 
she explained. "You have to use a lit- 
tle of your own common sense. I don't 
believe everything they tell me; I take 
it all with a grain of salt." 

before him. He's kidding, I hope. He's 
the clown in the family," Algene said. 

Clown or no clown by her side, 
Algene is now gearing up for her first 
marathon next year. "I'll be doing 63 
miles in a week by the time I do my 
first marathon," Algene explained. Win- 
ter weather won't stop her from training. 
"I don't run on ice, though; there's no 
sense in getting hurt," she added. 

It is fun, I'll tell you. I've 
always been a busy person, so if I 
couldn't run, I'd find something else 
to do, but it probably wouldn't be as 
challenging, stimulating or exciting 
... or as fun ! " 

"Yes, all runners are crazy. But 
it's OK. It's a good, healthy craziness. 

(Mi. Bnady, a jouAnatut and a 
nsxnnox Lt> a mmboA ofa Tko. dnzoXivi 
Woman advi^o/iy council.) 

One secret that Algene has prac- 
ticed since her younger days is that of 
taking long, hot baths (with a little 
baking soda) after any physical exertion, 
"And I've never had a sore muscle," she 
claims. Algene also tries to stay away 
from concrete as much as possible; she 
often trains on the dirt track of the 
local high school. "Concrete is no good 
for you; cement is for the squirrels. 
Asphalt is so much better." 

Algene 's husband, John, has been 
very supportive of his wife's newfound 
interest in and talent for running. 
"But he keeps saying we're going for a 
divorce once I cross the finish line 



by Emily Wasiolek 


Carol Duffy coming into finish. 

Carol Duffy, attractive 46-year-old 
mother of 11, and recently a grandmother, 
was the first person in the world to win 
the Worldloppet Medallion for cross 
country skiing. To accomplish this ex- 
traordinary feat, Carol skied 587 kilo- 
meters (367 miles) and traveled nearly 
20,000 miles by airplane and train to 
nine countries. She skied through icy 
weather on snow laden trails, through 
forests, over fields, and across frozen 
lakes and mountains. She skied eight 
hours at a time, ignoring her frostbit- 

ten feet and the fatigue and pain that 
pierced her body. Here is her story 
about her race in Italy on the 70 kilo- 
meter Marcialonga trail. 

"The rain was pouring down on us 
before the race even started in Italy. 
I said to myself, 'I'm not going to ski 
this. I am soaked already!' Over 4,000 
people were gathered there; most of them 
probably thinking similar thoughts. But 
the race was not called off! I was 
astonished. I began thinking about how 
much money I had spent to travel to Eur- 
ope, and I decided I really had to ski 
anyway. " 

"It was in this race that I learned 
about my pain zone. As the race began I 
needed to go to the bathroom and I was 
soaking wet. The weather was 30 to 32 
degrees, and it never stopped raining 
all day." 

"We skied through torrents of water 
coming down the mountains. My feet were 
two chunks of ice. I was hurting so 
badly I didn't know what to do. My 
bladder was full and I envied the men 
who would go to the side, turn their 
backs and just empty their bladders. I 
was too shy to do that in front of 
everyone so I just skied on. (In other 
races, I learned to just squat down like 
other women did.) So my bladder hurt 
the whole race. My mittens — I could 
have rung them out. I hurt all over, 
but the pain in my feet suddenly stopped. 

"I wanted to quit so badly but I 
had spent all that money to go there and 
be in this race. I just had to finish. 
I also felt that the guys in our group 
would not quit so I decided not to quit 

"I bore the pain hour after hour by 
sort of putting myself out of my body. 
My body skied, but I was separated from 
it so I couldn't feel pain. When I 
crossed that finish line, it was a weird 
sensation. I felt isolated and alone, 
and then, all of a sudden, the pain hit 
me full force, and I was so cold that I 
began trembling. One of our friends had 
finished just ahead of me and when he 
came up to me , I fell into his arms and 


sobbed and sobbed; and he said to me, 
•Carol, it was just terrible, wasn't it? 
I thought you would give up. I never 
thought you could make it.'" 

"When I changed my clothes, I saw 
that my feet were black and the pain was 
so great that I just wanted to scream 
and scream. So someone took me to the 
first aid room and for two hours the 
medical staff treated my frozen feet." 

"But I learned about the pain zone. 
Now I know if pain gets too bad, you 
just have to get out of your body so you 
don't feel it." 

The Worldloppet, which was formed 
in 1978, is an international cross coun- 
try ski competition for the professional 
skier and the average good skier (the 
citizen skier). The rules, however, 
differ for each group. The professional 
skier is timed, but the citizen skier 
can ski each race at her own pace, can 
take as many years as she wishes to 
complete the series of courses, and can 
ski them in any combination. When Carol 
and her lawyer husband, Tom, first heard 
about this new international competition, 
their interest was immediately kindled 
and they decided to try to ski these 
courses as rapidly as possible and to 
become among the world's first medallion 
winners. It took the couple two winters 
to complete the arduous series (1979 and 
1980), but because Carol finished the 
final American Bierkebeiner race ahead 
of Tom, she won first place. Since that 
time, 28 skiers have completed the World- 
loppet, but Carol Duffy is number one. 

During the years Carol competed, 
there was considerable prejudice against 
women in Sweden and Germany. Germany 
would not allow any woman to ski their 
Koniz Ludwig Lauf race because they be- 
lieved that women were not strong enough 
to ski 90 kilometers (56 miles) through 
the Bavarian Alps. Sweden also prohib- 
ited women from skiing their 56-year-old 
Vasaloppet race (begun 1922). Instead 
Sweden ran a special weekday race which 
women were allowed to ski. The Swedish 
ruling was unfair to all the women who 
had skied 75 kilometers in Finland the 
Sunday before. The men had a week to 

recuperate; the women had only two days. 
Carol explained, "whether it was fair or 
not, that was the custom. That was the 
rule so I skied. I was exhausted, sim- 
ply exhausted, but I finished that race. 
I did it!" 

The German prejudice was a more 
serious threat to Carol's goal since 
their course was for male skiers only. 
Women were not permitted to ski there at 
all. However, women were skiing in the 
other countries, and Carol Duffy's rec- 
ord was simply astonishing. In 1978- 
1979, in an eight-week period, Carol had 
skied seven races and finished them all. 
She had skied in Austria's Dolomitten- 
lauf, Italy's Marcialonga, Canada's Riv- 
iere Rouge, Finland's Finlandia Hiihto, 
Sweden's weekday Vasaloppet, Switzer- 
land's Engadin Skimarathon, and Norway's 
Birkebeiner-Rennet. So the Germans had 
to reconsider their rules. They called 
in a team of doctors from Heidelberg to 
do all kinds of tests to determine if 
women were really strong enough to race 
with the men. As a result of these 
tests, in 1980 for the very first time, 
the Germans allowed women to ski the 56- 
mile race. Of course, Carol (and some 
other women) finished that race. These 
were Carol's thoughts during the Swedish 
and German races. 

"These men — these men. They think 
women aren't tough. They don't know 
what tough is. If I can get through la- 
bor for 11 babies and take care of them 
without anyone's help — if I can do all 
that, I can ski their blasted race. Men 
just don't understand how tough a woman 
can be." 

Although Carol's stories of these 
races reinforce the pain and difficulty 
of this exhausting International compe- 
tition, there were immense satisfactions 
each time she crossed the finish line. 
And there were surprises. In Canada she 
won first place for women over thirty. 

"In Canada I did well, surprisingly 
well. I can't believe how well I did. 
I won first place for women over thirty, 
and I was 45 at that time. It was 
astonishing to me because I was tired 
after traveling from one country to 


another, and also that trail was very 
hilly and very poorly groomed that year. 
It was very, very difficult. But I 
still feel thrilled about winning that 
first place." 

Another surprise that still de- 
lights Carol happened in Norway. 

"About half way through that race 
in Norway, I saw a television camera. I 
was totally wiped out. My shoulders 
ached from the 12-pound pack that every- 
one had to wear. I had skied seven 
races in eight weeks so I was totally 
depleted. But then the national tele- 
vision came down the trail to film me; 
and even though I was just about dying 
when they asked me how I was, I smiled. 
(Don't women always know how to smile no 
matter what?) And then I told them I 
was just fine and was enjoying the ski- 
ing. (What a liar I was!) That whole 
interview was on television that night 
and I looked just great. I was a celeb- 
rity in Norway. " 

(Ma. WaAtxilzk, a t&acheA o{> EngLuh 
and Qjinatlva WsvcbLng at VnjouUvid Statu 
ColtZQZ, hah pubtibnzd oJitMitu and 
poztAy. Ska <U aJUo a membeA o& 
tha aJdvi&oJLy cou.n<u£ o& The. OiqjjXlsxl 
Woman. ) 

"I had been interviewed the day 
before so there was a huge picture of me 
on the front page of the newspaper and 
there were articles about me." 

"People there don't have big famil- 
ies so they were astonished that I had 
11 children, and even grandchildren, and 
could ski such long races." 

Carol is an extraordinary woman, 
but she doesn't seem to realize it. I 
asked her what she learned from her 
Worldloppet experience and she said, "I 
really think women can do anything. I 
really mean that with all my heart. 
Helen Reddy says it all in her song 'I 
Am Woman. ' 

"You can bend but never break me 
Cause it only serves to make me 
More determined to achieve my 

final goal. 
If I have to I can do anything." 

Carol Duffy, the first person to 
win the Worldloppet Medallion, lives the 
words of that song. 


by Barbara Pierce 

Today the grass in my parents' 
backyard is as thick and lush as the 
rest of the lawn. It has made a remark- 
able recovery from the years of abuse 
which began in 1960. 

That year I turned eight years old. 
By then my baseball glove was ripe, 
softened from the endless hours on first 
base where I became elated when I got 
the tag, furious when I didn't, and 
hoarse from arguing the close calls. 

But in the summer of '60 the guys 
weren't around much any more and pick-up 
games were hard to find. The cause? 
Pee Wee baseball. The boys had come of 
age, and it wasn't long before the or- 
ganized training they were receiving put 
me completely out of their league. I 
was left behind. 

That's when the grass started thin- 
ning and a dirt path appeared in front 
of the brick chimney. From there I kept 
my arm in shape hurling pitches against 
the brick and diving for the line drives 
which mercilessly shot back. When the 
brick batter blasted a fly, I provided 
the play-by-play commentary as the ball 
arched skyward. 

"It's a fly ball deep to center 
field. Can she get under it? She's 
back, back, makes an inCREDible leap 
... a backward roll into the flower 
garden. . . . Does she have it? YES! 
Yes, she's godit! Oh wudda catch!" 

The chimney had replaced the guys. 
It was more dependable anyway. 

I thank my father for the accuracy 
of my fast ball. Not only did he play 
catch with his daughter, but she could 
count on him to appear at the back porch 
if a pitch strayed off course and rat- 
tled the living room window or left 
marks on the white wooden siding. I 
didn't welcome those appearances so my 
concentration rarely faltered. That's 

also why I was reluctant to work on my 
curve ball. 

I didn't resent my fate in baseball. 
I figured that game was a privilege of 
manhood. Girl's softball? Yuk! They 
all threw the ball like girls. Tennis? 
I spent most of my time with a bucket of 
balls practicing my serve. Girls didn't 
take tennis seriously in my small home 
town in upstate New York and boys, I 
quickly learned, couldn't take defeat 
from a girl. 

But now, at age 28, I feel Vindi- 
cated. Relocated in the Pacific North- 
west, I've discovered soccer and I'm 
busy making up for lost time. 

I run to build my endurance. I 
scour the television listings for soccer 
broadcasts. A water-filled Clorox bot- 
tle dangling from a pulley in the base- 
ment is my make-shift weight machine — 
great for the quadriceps, the essential 
kicking muscles. 

Like the clothes horse who agonizes 
for hours before a mirror to achieve 
that just-right look, I spend my spare 
moments juggling the soccer ball with my 
feet, thighs, and head, trying desperate- 
ly to look like I'm not trying. 

On the field I love being aggres- 
sive. Those who insist women should not 
join men in combat have never seen (or 
heard) us play soccer. Each week I give 
my husband an update on battleworn body 
parts which are temporarily untouchable. 
This week it's the right elbow, right 
ankle, and left thigh. The purple 
bruise on the upper thigh got US a free 
kick. The dried blood on the mid-thigh 
is a grim reminder of the foul which 
gave THEM a free kick. 

And were it not for soccer, I'd 
still be waiting for my first black eye. 

My husband, a soccer widower, is 
understanding, supportive, and not sur- 
prised. It was this same soccer junkie 
who started the first argument in our 
married life on the third day of the 
honeymoon. It started something like, 


"What do you MEAN you forgot to pack 
your baseball glove?" 

Our coach knows soccer and he takes 
women's soccer seriously unlike the 
Seattle soccer shoe salesman who will 
never get my business. "Well, the shoe 
style doesn't matter much. You girls 
just go out there and run around for the 
exercise. ..." 

Last season no opponent managed to 
break our losing streak. I try to shake 
off the defeats, but my mind forces me 
to replay the games for days afterward. 
"If only I'd passed it back to Evie. 
She had a clear shot. . . . How could I 
get caught offsides on a key play like 
that. ... A cross to Nancy would have 
given her the fast break. ..." 

We're serious but not humorless. 
In one two-day Portland tournament, af- 
ter losing regularly and decisively, my 
team agreed to lie down and play dead if 
the opposition reached ten goals. They 
did so we did. It was the only perfect- 
ly executed play the Bainbridge Island 
Wings pulled off that weekend. 

The United States Soccer Federation 
claims there are nearly 30,000 women out 
there dribbling somewhere. In Washing- 
ton it's a disease — THE topic of conver- 
sation, second only to the rain and tied 
with a volcano. This year, the first 
national women's soccer competition was 
held in Miami, and Washington won in 
both divisions. Next year the champion- 
ship will be at the home of the champs. 

My mother? No, she doesn't play. She's 
not even a fan. But, uh, well, we've 
both swooned over Bogie. Hers played 
in Casablanca, mine for the Cosmos — 
Vladislav Bogicevic, Yugoslavian defend- 
er for the New York team. 

For those of us with a history of 
getting edged out of the joy of serious 
competition, soccer has come to the 
rescue. Now, 20 years after my parents' 
lawn turned to dirt, the grass in my own 
backyard is wearing thin, losing the 
battle for survival to the relentless 
pounding of my soccer cleats. 

Again there is the thud of a ball 
pummeling the side of the house. But 
this time the ball is bigger and the 
effort worthwhile. At last, I can match 
my skills against other women who play 
to win. 

(Mi ?A,2Act aj> a. jouJinaJLUt Living 
Jin New Vosik CJjty.) 

Why has it become so popular in 
this country? One secret is the youth 
program. For years mothers have duti- 
fully schlepped children back and forth 
to soccer games, supplied the team with 
oranges, nursed injuries, and yelled 
support from the sidelines. Eventually, 
vulnerable to the contagious excitement 
of the sport, they too wanted their day 
on the field. 

Additionally, with girls graduating 
from the 250,000-strong youth program 
into the adult competition, some teams 
can even boast of mother/daughter duos. 


by Emily Wasiolek 

Personal Best is an inspiring and 
provocative movie about women athletes 
competing for positions on the U. S. 
track and field teams for the 1980 Ol- 
ympics. As the women learn to endure 
emotional and physical challenges, they 
also learn about their own capacities, 
their limitations and their individual 

When the movie begins, Chris Cahill 
(played by Mariel Hemingway) fails to 
make the 1976 Olympic team in the Oregon 
trials. Her father scolds her because 
he believes she has no killer instinct. 
She accepts his judgment without realiz- 
ing his aggressive theories cannot work 
for her. Chris has to understand her 
own reasons for competing and winning. 

From left: Patrice Donnelly, Jodi Anderson, and Mariel 

Tory Skinner (played by Patrice 
Donnelly), a seasoned competitor and an 
older woman, becomes the person who 
helps young Chris mature and find her- 
self. Tory teaches Chris to improve and 
appreciate her extraordinary gifts of 
strength, agility, and speed. The two 
women competitors become friends, share 

the exhausting training, and push their 
bodies through pain into physical tough- 
ness. Their relationship, grounded in 
friendship and common goals, develops 
into a loving sexual and authentic human 
intimacy. Later when the brief sexual 
relationship is severed, the affection- 
ate friendship and deep personal concern 

Two men also help Chris mature. 
One is the Olympic coach, Scott Glenn 
Tungloff, who genuinely loves and be- 
lieves in his girl athletes and who 
knows how to manipulate, tough talk, en- 
courage, and motiviate them to win. The 
other man is Denny (played by Kenny 
Moore) who first sees Chris swimming and 
then lifting weights and who admires the 
beauty, grace, and power associated with 
her athletic ability. At a moment of 
crisis, Denny encourages Chris not to 
think about any of her competitors, but 
only ;o try to do her personal best. 
This encouragement helps her win her 
place in the 1980 Olympic track team. 

During the same final competition, 
Tory hurts her leg and plans to give up 
competing for the pentathlon. Chris re- 
alizes Tory is despondent over the end- 
ing of their relationship and affection- 
ately encourages her to run the 800 me- 
ter race. Tory comes in first and also 
wins a place on the Olympic team. 

The real success of this film be- 
longs to the writer, producer, director, 
Robert Towne (also screenwriter of Sham- 
poo and Chinatown ) who had the wisdom to 
select actual athletes to play the parts. 
He chose Kenny Moore, a former Olympic 
marathoner to play Chris' boyfriend; and 
Patrice Donnelly, a former Olympic hur- 
dler, to play Chris' dearest friend. 
Both athletes-turned-actors play their 
roles sensitively. And Mariel Hemingway 
is an athletic person herself, a cross 
country skier and a trampoline expert 
and runner. Because the actors are real 
athletes, the movie has authenticity. 

The film is successful too because 
of the techniques used by the brilliant 
cinematographer, Michael Chapman. Chap- 
man tells a nonverbal story by using a 
series of close-ups and slow motion 


shots so the audience can see the sweat, 
the tension, and the grace of the bodies 1 
movements. There is an especially stun- 
ning scene of long-legged Hemingway in 
super slow motion soaring slowly and 
beautifully over a hurdle. During an- 
other scene when Chris and Tory arm 
wrestle, the concentration is on their 
throbbing veins and their muscles. 
Chapman's filming celebrates the power 
and strength of women's bodies in a 
sensual rather than in a sexual manner. 
Some critics believe Chapman overuses 
the slow motion technique, but these 
slow motion shots give the viewer an 
exact sense of how athletic bodies work. 
In one of the final scenes, we see Tory 
running so effortlessly that she appears 
to be flying. 

Most of the scenes depict the ar- 
duous training of these women athletes; 
but some of the scenes show the humor, 
the love, the conflicts, the loneliness, 
the bewilderment, and the general com- 
plexity of their human relationships. 
As a result Personal Best is something 
more than the story of women athletes 
who win a place on the 1980 Olympic- 
bound team. Personal Best is also a 
story about growing up, self-knowledge, 
and fulfilling one's highest potential. 
It is definitely a picture no woman 
should miss. 

Mariel Hemingway 



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Kinzer. Ballantine: N.Y. (1979) 

Thoughts and Feelings: The Art of Cognitive 

Stress Intervention - Martha Davis, Matthew 

McKay, Patrick Fanning. New Harbinger: 

Richmond, CA (1981) 

Women in Stress: A Nursing Perspective -Diane 

Kjervik and Ida Martinson. Appleton-Century- 

Crofts: N.Y. (1979) 

Substance Abuse 

The Female Fix - Muriel Nellis. Penguin Books: 

N.Y. (1980 

The Invisible Alcoholics: Women and Alcohol 

Abuse — M. Sandmaier. McGraw Hill: N.Y. 


Spectrum: Alcohol Problem Prevention for 

Women by Women - Susan Bower and M. M. 

Heffernan. National Clearinghouse for Alcohol 

Information (1981) 


Cowan, Belita, (ed.) Women's Health Care: 
Resources, Writings, Bibliographies. Write: 
Belita Cowan, 556 Second St., Ann Arbor, 
Michigan 48103 

Ruzek, Sheryl K. Women and Health Care. Write: 
Program on Women, Northwestern University, 
619 Emerson Street, Evanston, Illinois 60201 

Women's Health Advocacy Groups 

National Women's Health Network 
224 Seventh St., S.E. 
Washington, D.C. 20003 

This organization is fighting to: 

oppose laws restricting abortion 

challenge the dominant role of the insurance 

industry in any proposed national health care 


promote barrier birth control methods 
identify and eliminate workplace health and 

safety hazards 
alert women across the country to new 

developments in medical research and 

treatment alternatives 
bring pioneering lawsuits against drug 

companies and medical groups on behalf 

of women 
represent the women's health movement before 

the U.S. Congress and federal health officials 

Women's Occupational Health Resource Center 

School of Public Health 

Columbia University 

600 Haven Aven. N.Y. 10032 

An organization devoted to helping working 
women, trade unions, management, health 
professionals and government policy makers 
become aware of women's occupational health 
and safety needs and the necessity for adequate 

HERS — Health Evaluation and Referral 


1954 W. Irving Park Road 

Chicago, Illinois 60613 

Referrals to evaluate doctors, abortion clinics, 
psychotherapists. They also refer to support 
groups for birth control, cancer treatment, 
genetic counseling, prenatal care, sexually 
transmitted diseases, childbirth and infertility. 

Omega Institute for Holistic Studies 

P.O. Box 571 

Lebanon Springs, N.Y. 12114 

Consumers' Health Group 
828 Davis St. 
Evanston, Illinois 60201 

The Healthful Living Co. 
17847 Co. Rd. 126 
Goshen, Indiana 46526 



Breast Cancer Self Help Group 

Park Forest YWCA 

Park Forest Plaza 

Park Forest, Illinois 60466 

(312) 747-8496 

Women's Health Center 

Illinois Masonic Medical Center 

904 W. Oakdale 

Chicago, Illinois 60657 


Services include reading library, nutrition 

counseling, education, emotional support, 

telephone information and referral service, 

comprehensive primary health and medical 



is moving to the 

Fine Arts Building 

410 South Michigan Avenue 

Second Floor 

New hours: 

Monday-Saturday 10:00-5:00 
Thursday 10:00-6:00 

Sunday 12:00-5:00 


Saturday 410 So. Michigan Ave. 

September 4. 1982 Second Floor 

1:00-4:00 p.m. Chicago. IL 60605 

Refreshments & Prizes (312) 663- 1 885 


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A Traveling Jewish Theatre , one of the 
most talented of the groups to perform 
in last summer's week-long Gathering 
of small theatre groups in St. Peter, 
Minnesota, will be performing in the 
Mid West during the 1982-83 season. 
(See review of ATJT and The Gathering 
in Summer 198l issue of this quarterly.) 

These creative people have developed 
a new production which speaks directly 
to the concerns that have been expressed 
repeatedly in these pages. In A DANCE 
OF EXILE, they show how the split be- 
tween male and female has separated 
us from our deepest humanity , and how 
to achieve harmony and integration. 
In their language: 

In A DANCE OF EXILE, we move through 
many variations on the theme of exile: 
our separation from the divine source; 
our separation from the feminine — the 
shekhina, God's other face, his 
bride — the separation of light and 
dark, once working in harmony to 
complete creation, now split and 
polarized into distortions of them- 
selves; our separation from our past, 
our forgotten sources and from each 
other. As we move through the 
dance, we feel the jagged edges of 
these splits, and also the potential 
for wholeness as we bring the dis- 
owned parts , the scattered sparks , 
back together again. 

As we receive news of their performance 
dates and places, we will share that 
information with our readers. 




It Just Occurred To Me 

a collection 

of essays by the late Carol Silverberg 
of Pond Road, Wilton, Connecticut. 
Published in a limited edition by Miss 
Silverberg 's long-time friend, Kate 
Steichen, (See TCW VOL IV #2) the book 
contains fifty pieces originally 
published in Connecticut newspapers . 

A biographical note by Kate 
Steichen at the end of the book notes 
that the last piece Miss Silverberg 
wrote was published the day she died, 
at 80, on November Ik , 1979- 

The book is available from the 
Wilton Library for $3-50. Proceeds 
which go to the library are tax 

Carol Silverberg 

Illinois Masonic Medical Center 

The integrated components of physical health, mental health and 
on-going education at the Women's Health program, creates a. well- 
balanced, wholistic approach for women interested in taking 
responsibility for their well-being. This free-standing, hospital 
affiliated women's health center provides women of all ages an 
opportunity to participate in their own health care in a comfortable, 
relaxed, non-institutional f\ S^k atmosphere . 

Current Services Include 
-Reading Library 

articles on all 

concern to 

Service that 

the programs an 

health and 
-Community Meeting 

workshops and 
-Comprehensive primary 

offered by a team of 

a nutritionist, a mental 

with books, pamphlets and 
health issues of particular 
Information and Referral 
identifies for callers 
eople who can meet their 
illness needs; 
Room to host seminars, 
support groups for women; 
health and medical services 
physicians, a nurse practitioner, 
health counselor and health educators 

who will provide personalized, participatory health care for women, 
Appointments are available by calling 883-7052. 

Library Hours 
Monday 10am-4pm 
Wednesday 10am-4pm 






Planning for this issue began 
several years ago. As I wondered 
whether women related to their bodies 
in distinctly different ways than men, 
I posed the question to a few local 
experts . Their answers convinced 
me that a special issue on this topic 
might be rewarding for our readers . 

Ben Lowe, professor at this 
University and author of The Beauty 
of Sport* , replied without hesitation: 
"Yes, very differently. Women are 
more aware of the aesthetic dimension 
in sport. Men have to be taught to 
appreciate it." 

Maude Meyers, swim coach, said, 
"Yes, I have found it so. In coaching 
swimming teams of both sexes , the men 
tend to treat the water as an adversary, 
pitting themselves aggressively 
against it, the women seem to flow 
more in harmony with the water and 
this gives them great endurance and 
staying power." 

The instructor who conducts the 
gymastics classes for the tiny pre- 
school children in the Y, said, "The 
most obvious difference is that the 
girls achieve each stage of motor 
coordination and balance at an earlier 
age than the boys". 

Putting these three hints together — 
awareness of beauty, ability to flow 
in harmony with the physical environ- 
ment, and accelerated neuromuscular 
development — one might suppose that 
girls and women would be pre-eminently 
at home in their bodies. Why is it, 
then, that so many women feel physically 
inadequate, or are even convinced 
that they are unattractive? (Several 
books have been written to answer that 
exact question!) What is undeniable is 
that women have been taught these 
self-demeaning attitudes. What is 
learned can be unlearned. It is a 
matter of ridding the mind of poisons. 

The process of cleansing — of the 
physical body and of those psychological 
beliefs that demean and limit us — is 
underway . 

Our readers will see how this 
concern for the body is connected 
to our concern for the health of the 
planet , and how both are connected 
to our struggles toward a future where 
human rights are paramount in a world 
at Peace. A recent example is note- 
worthy. For the past decade, social 
commentators have asserted that the 
environmental movement has little or 
no appeal to minority groups or poor 
folks who are presumed to be more 
concerned with their own day-to-day 
survival than the protection of 
wilderness (expressed as "jobs vs. 
backpackers"). If it was true at 
all, it ceased to be true for the 
population of black farmers , small 
land-holders , in a rural village in 
North Carolina, the moment hazardous 
toxic wastes were scheduled to be 
dumped near their farms and homes . 
As the people met to decide how to 
prevent the poisoning of their land, 
as they decided to demonstrate, as 
they began to march, they sang the 
song, the song so familiar to anyone 
who participated in the civil rights 
marches of the 60's, the song with 
an upbeat melody, a rhythmic beat, and 
a soul-stirring affirmation, ending 
with Freedom Now! Old song, new cause. 
The women ' s movement owes a debt to 
that song and to the energies released 
in us by our participation in the 
civil rights movement. Now, as rural 
blacks march to that same music, against 
the corruption of their land by the 
toxic wastes , the excrement of the 
chemical industry, we move a step 
closer to The Turning Point, to a 
coalescence of many movements , arching 
toward our rainbow future. 


* Lowe, The Beauty of Sport , Prentice 
Hall, Inc. , 1977. 




Winter '83 of The Creative Woman will 
be "Women and The Law". 
We welcome articles , poems , "book re- 
views , and graphics for issues in pro- 
gress on "Changing Men", "Women Flying", 
"Mothers and Daughters" and "Diaries". 


The Celibate Woman , A Journal for 
Women Who Are Celibate or Considering 
this Liberating Way of Relating to 
Others . 

The first issue published July 
1982 contains personal journal accounts 
interviews, book reviews and poetry. 

The editor is Martha Allen and 
subscriptions at $8 for 2 issues are 
available from 3306 Ross Place, N.W. 
Washington, D.C., 20008. 


In this new department we will 
make available to interested readers 
copies of books to be reviewed. 

If you want to review a book on 
our list write to us, state your inter- 
est in the topic , and you may borrow 
the book for review. Publication of 
completed reviews will rest on approval 
of our editorial staff. 

Books available for review are: 
Women ' s Reality : an emerging female 
system in the white male society by 
Anne Wilson Schaef, Winston Press, 
Minneapolis, 198l. 
Divine Rebel , The Life of Anne 
Marbury Hutchinson by Selma R. Williams, 
Holt, Rinehart and Winston, N.Y. 1981; 
Ripening Selected Work, 1927-1980 by 
Meridel Le Sueur, The Feminist Press, 
Old Westbury, N.Y. 1982. 
The Moon and The Virgin , Reflections 
on the Archetypal Feminine by Nor Hall. 
Harper and Row, N.Y. 19 80. 
Christina Rossetti , A Divided Life by 
Georgina Battiscombe. Holt, Rinehart & 
Winston, N.Y. 1981. 
The Fair Women by Jeanne Madeline 
Weimann. The Story of The Woman's 
Building, World's Columbian Exposition 
of Chicago 1893. Academy, Chicago, 19 8l. 

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